Thanks, that's what I wanted to hear. Why have you been holding this back for so much time?
Anyways, now that I'm diagnosed, what's the treatment?
The voice inside my head just won't stop for anything. This society not only requires a person to do drama, it also praises you for it. Drama = validation. It's all about validation and getting your own needs met; no one cares about you -- that's the ultimate truth.
Sometimes I try to be equanimous, I try to be grateful for what I have, but the rage rises over my head when I am forced to witness people that have WAY MORE than me complainning because of small things. I had to endure worse
**** my entire life and those spoiled motherfuckers are like the nobility being upset by small, frivolous things.
Slavery, something that used to happen in the past just shows the true face of humanity. Only your position and how much money you have defines your worth. Don't have money nor position? Then you are worse than trash -- They don't care if your get killed or live a long and miserable life. Slavery may not exist anymore as an accepted thing, but human nature hasn't changed since the old times. We are still the monsters we have always been. Name a human activity that hasn't validation or survival at it's roots and watch yourself failing miserably. The world is depressingly shallow.
How can I even have a moment of peace knowing those things? You think what I just spoke was a big load of drama? Because what I just said are the truest things I can say at the moment.
This world is vicious hell... And envy towards happy, successful people burns inside my being 24/7. What choice do I have other than escaping into my own personal drama?