Hi Jed, being looks alot like a verb now...
I can't delineate subject/object in the relationship very easily anymore. It seems like there was just the idea of a boundary, almost like an arbitrary choice, or maybe habitual is a better word. Like awareness hooked up with the senses in the same way, ie. 'normal' waking state, to create an illusion of continuity, but it's not very continuous now. eeeee, there is a question, but it's not coming out.
Maybe it is....do I have anything to do with this perceiving activity? Do I have to have anything to do with it?
It looks like a prison more than a funhouse. shoot, that is all mixed up with desire to be in a different way. Maybe what I'm asking is, can the show go on, but with 'me' abiding in a different vantage point, a theoretically stable one, where all the movement of the senses happens, but I don't move? Nisargadatta seemed to say that was his state, but someone describing a direct experience is tricky.
See, a stable state keeps coming around, no longer crammed up in the senses, but more all-encompassing, where all the change in the senses keeps happening but there is internal stability. Haha then it changes, so stable but not stable. Is the desire for this state ok? Not to repeat it, as it just keeps coming up, but to let go into it?