Been doing the sense thing from rant on techniques.
There arises a natural state of just-perceiving, thought ceases, and the experience becomes more of an awareness of energy as big and still rather than being localized. It is a very attractive and stable state, and functions still happen, meaning it's not a ramana state of non activity, when prompting for action comes around, response happens. It is indicated, apparently. That's an appropriate word.
This state seems really desirable to let go into, or at least to let go of the front-of-the-head thought/sight experience as not desirable and see what happens.
but, it happened to hit, who is aware of this? There is fricken awareness of the perceiving, it is hallucinated that that was glimpsed That's the real surrender, isn't it?
I feel a case of the existential bends coming on, Jed, and there's a madman who looks just like me, waiting with a harpoon. I mean, when thinking happens, it's not very cool about this whole deal. What an ass-hat