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Marina_

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« Reply #75 on: August 28, 2017, 09:15:44 am »
part 1

Past

My mind was partly involved in detective story.
My heart loved both: the book and forum Jed.
Today the pendulum has stopped.
I remembered, and everything fell into place.

Very, very long time I had a group of like-minded people. We were looking for the truth. They trusted me. But I led them to a dead end.
I could forgive myself for my delusion, but what about people who trusted me?
I remember their faces ...
It was such a pain that I said to myself: "Never ever ever will I lead any groups." No more spiritual searches, and perhaps there is no truth. "
And I buried this story deep in the subconscious, sealed it so that I never remember it.
This continued from life to life.

What in this life?
Strange things happened to me that I could not explain.
As soon as several people gathered together to discuss some spiritual theme, and I felt that they were going aside and began to argue with them, something suddenly clicked in me. I fell silent in mid-sentence, I was going and leaving. Or rather - I ran from there.
After that, I stopped all communication with my friends for a while.
I could not explain this behavior  to myself.  My friends didn't understand anything either. They joked:
"Marina went to drinking again."
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« Reply #76 on: August 28, 2017, 09:16:41 am »
part 2

Dedicated to Jed

If you remember, your first answer on my thread was about blame.
I even called it "Big BUT".  )
You got to the very point, straight into the heart.

And below you can see my reaction. It worked at a deep level.

After that, I had my own experience, like this: to be deceived by a Teacher whom I trust?
Dear Jed, I don’t care if there is a deception "in reality" or not. I NEEDED to go through it.

And what did I find?
I can neither blame nor justify anyone, because I see the whole picture. And here there is no right and guilty, because there is no "guilt". I see the roles, I see the connections.
It is very harmonious and ... beautiful ...

Now I feel so light.
I forgave myself. Or rather, I let go of the feeling of blame.

Besides that, you gave me a lot more ...
Much has remained behind the scenes...
You gave me a helping hand and I finally came.

This is not even called love. Can this be given a name?
... So great ... such a grace ...
... So powerful and so subtle at the same time ...

No, it's impossible to describe…
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« Reply #77 on: August 28, 2017, 09:17:36 am »
Part 3

Dedicated to everybody

How I want to bring everyone to this place. At least for one second.
... Oh my God...
...
And everyone will come here...

...
The thread is tied, torn, intertwined into new fancy shapes.
What's happening?
Why is life sometimes perceived as falling into an abyss, and sometimes like a miracle?
It never stands still.
And probably this will remain a mystery.

Because the Spirit holds breath when he sees how this lace is weaved.
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« Reply #78 on: August 28, 2017, 02:23:36 pm »
Welcome home my dear...

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #79 on: August 31, 2017, 03:55:30 pm »
If you are in a dilemma and do not know what to do, do something somehow.
Do something. Anyway.
... Or throw this dilemma out of your head.

It still does not matter. You can not be mistaken, no matter what you do.


Hmm ... It's strange that I'm writing this here.
For me, this problem is no longer relevant.
Then for whom?
It was a reaction to someone's request.
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« Reply #80 on: August 31, 2017, 10:54:57 pm »
Love ya, Jed

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« Reply #81 on: September 05, 2017, 01:20:35 am »
Sorry for the offtopic, but I consider it necessary to publish it here.

Wayne Wirs, author of 'Mystical Oneness', passed away on the 31st of August 2017.
Below is an excerpt from his last letter:

(August 30, 2017 9:59 AM)
I have spent these final days focusing on exactly what I am to help with the death process and merging with the Light: I am Love. Aware, intelligent Love. Everything else is just the fog around me-as-Love. You are Love too.

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« Reply #82 on: September 05, 2017, 04:07:11 am »
Hi Marina:

Thanks for sharing and caring.

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #83 on: September 05, 2017, 10:17:18 am »
In the face of death, all the masks are falling. All roles, desires, interpretations, ...
You know.
(And I experienced it too.)

There is only pure awareness. Clarity.
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« Reply #84 on: September 05, 2017, 10:58:47 am »
Yes, that's about it.

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« Reply #85 on: September 22, 2017, 07:28:35 am »
Maybe someday I'll write a little story about my online contextual dictionary.
It has a random choice, so different versions may appear for the same word at different times.
Sometimes it turns out funny.

‘ crazy’ :

“Crazy and confused, but sweet.”
“You have a confidence that drive women crazy.”
“ I'll bet you have some crazy stories.”
“They'd be crazy to come after us.”

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« Reply #86 on: September 23, 2017, 03:25:33 am »
 ;) ;) ;)

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« Reply #87 on: September 27, 2017, 04:19:05 am »
I didn't know how to put into words a state when I know and don't know at the same time.
Mooji put it very precisely:
"Let understanding come and kiss you, but not try and kiss understanding."

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« Reply #88 on: September 27, 2017, 04:41:14 am »
Well expressed...

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #89 on: October 07, 2017, 04:30:58 am »
The absence of an answer is also an answer.
Thank you for everything.

Farther.