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Thea

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New to forum-- not sure how it works
« on: January 02, 2015, 11:00:56 am »
Hi Jed,

While I don't always remember to look at what is looking,  I figured out that whenever I am not "empty," have an identity problem. I guess I use a step process where I just let the feelings or thoughts happen and witness them fully. It is generally easy, after a minute or two, to really see that there is "no one" who is upset, inadequate, angry, etc. A few months ago, I "saw" that when I hold onto something, it is because I'm afraid of re-identifying myself as "not that." In other words, as not the one with the trauma, opinion, pain, belief, (and on and on). It's as if I'm being flung into wide open space. It feels as if I am doing this alone because my spiritual groups are hung up on pretty words.

Experience has taught me that the next step will reveal itself when I ask. I'm not quite clear on spiritual autolysis, but there are times when it is clear there is no one home. I guess I am asking for the next step.
Thea

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Jed McKenna

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Re: New to forum-- not sure how it works
« Reply #1 on: January 02, 2015, 11:23:30 am »
Dear Thea:

Welcome to the forum. It's pretty difficult to say what's next without know more about you. I would guess that you already know what is next and just have to relax and it will show up, probably right in your face.

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: New to forum-- not sure how it works
« Reply #2 on: January 02, 2015, 12:11:48 pm »
I have had a suspicion there is something more (or other than) since elementary school. As a teenager, I started with the usual stuff and made my way through Seth, new age thought, Eckhart Tolle, Course In Miracles, Byron Katie, your books -- non-duality stuff. The last books I actually read were Scott Kiloby's Love's Quiet Revolution and Carse's Perfect Brilliant Stillness. In the 80s, I actually owned a bookstore that sold all this stuff until I figured out that all we were doing was reading. I've always suspected that spiritual growth was actually a process of divestment. For that reason, (except to remind myself there are others out there) I don't really want to read any more. I like the Sedona Method, and recently, I've found the Youtube stuff by Tom Campbell to be helpful.

Right now, what is happening is that I feel as if I want to live with fewer reference points, and I find that it is a rather lonely place. It's not that I don't want to retreat into herd mentality-- it is that in many instances, I couldn't if I wanted to. Was it you who said that thinking is highly overrated? It is, and it'd be nice to hang out with other bodies who are not busy thinking, calculating, worrying, projecting. It's so funny when people tell me what they think I must be thinking about them or a situation. They don't believe me when I tell them I'm not thinking.