INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

I Don't Want To Exist



We have to eat, sleep, we forget, we're petty and superficial, everything we do and think is meaningless. When things are going "well", we fool ourselves into thinking life is "good", when in reality, any moment could turn into suffering.

Why does the universe exist?

We don't think about it, because we're so immersed in it, so distracted by it, and because there is no answer.

Logic follows - if one doesn't see the point, then for them, there is no point. I could kill myself, but how can I know "I" will not be reborn? How can I know anything at all? So I can't do anything about it, what am I supposed to do then? Why the actual **** do I exist and what am I supposed to do?


I just want to clear this up: I am not being pessimistic, but rather, I'm existentially exhausted and feeling rebellious in the sense that I don't want to be a part of any of it. I guess what I really wish for is to REST. Not sleep-rest, more like die-rest. I want eternal peace or to actually be a true god that can actually have a full/any option at every dimension of life over the current limits.

We ultimately have to make two decisions: 1) Do we  choose to live or die? 2) Do we choose to be try to be happy/positive or miserable/negative?

but both these choices are still part of the human psyche which in the end is meaningless