Last few weeks, I dont know how to make some more fun, I feel myself like loosing any motivation to do anything except food, when its really need, body needs, and very rarely make some hobby. The most of the time I seating at my room and contemplate inside my person a dark-dark-dark feelings and apathy about most of the things.
This sort of question arise in a head: What can I give to the others? What can I tell them when we meet? They are so belive and sure in their (whatever) goals, their importance, or that every moment of their life they trying to find more pleasure and fun, and on the other side is me, who not sure in anything, especially in this "me", in my thoughts in a head, in my feelings, in pain inside, not sure in what I want. What can I say to others at this level, when somebody (friends, parents, people around) want to spend time or drink coffee with me? This diffidence paralize me, and I siting at home already a week or a few, and dont take a phone when somebody calling. And this strange feelings that Im not sure what is this "me", but at the same time I steel have this "I, me, mine" level.
Jed, where I need to look, and for what things i need to be focusing?