Dear Jed
My apology. I should not use this word - control. I mean, in the past, my mind heard ego's voice and followed his voice (and also trust his voice. Sense of existing, feelings, emotion ... etc are all ego's voice), gradually, my mind did not trust ego's voice any more, and turn its trust to Little Bastard, heard his voice and follow his will. In this process, I let Little Bastard voice come in in my mind and show any things that my mind own (sense of existing, feelings, emotion, memories ... etc, even concepts) before, in the front of Little Bastard the things that my own crashed, even the separation (the wall) between I and he (it also released my mind from ego's control and let it free). It is what i call "I released the control of mind and allowed Little Bastard to lead it".