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Title: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 19, 2017, 01:14:14 am
Hello Jed!

I am actually coming here to search for help. Well...  ::) I can see who around me is not H/A -
But wow! I am in the midst of a bad Situation. My closest relationship says I have borderline, I Need help and he does not let go of that opinion and even tells others and wants me to realize that I Need help etc etc - Drama, what can you do - ...  I want to be H/A, I just Need to find my way to H/A. I know that you are not a self help Guru but yoiu might be able to give me a tip to H/A.. 

If I go on like this, I will develop Cancer or age fast

Love,
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 19, 2017, 01:20:15 am
Hi there:

To me, that ''closest relationship'' doesn't sound very healthy or happy. What are you getting out of sticking around it? Perhaps you do need help, help in getting that other being out of your life.

It takes two to tango.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 19, 2017, 08:55:27 am
Not much : some little time - almost none- which is superficially harmonious and in love but with an underlying sense of shame and fear of it turning around again
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 19, 2017, 09:17:03 am
I just posted a Rant on H/A. Have a read.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 21, 2017, 06:24:22 am
I appreciate . What I also stay for is the lies. I went in for a lie , I have a hard time being honest with him and I do not want to leave him and still have lies .. that's that
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 21, 2017, 01:09:05 pm
How do you know if another is lying?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 21, 2017, 03:37:30 pm
I cannot but if I feel a sense of honesty and sincerity within me I feel it in the other where I do not care if they lie because if they would it would be fine because I trust they know or are ok as they are
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 22, 2017, 04:23:05 am
Sounds like baffle-gab... but who am I do talk?

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 22, 2017, 04:45:47 am
Don't hurt my feelings. I am currently at a place that I would call : bla. I don't care much - feel peaceful - but still holding on to the - gone- - and - fearful - relationship - how to be true to myself?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 23, 2017, 03:28:09 am
Find out precisely who wants to be true to whom? Then you will ''know''...  :P :P :P ::) 8) 8) 8) :o

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 23, 2017, 05:37:22 am
Of Course, everything Comes out of this -- words cannot describe it. Thus, ok, no me and myself, no Division.

I guess I am struggling with my own stupidity. Why do I waste time..? Why not decide to go and live this life as fully as possible, enjoying everything, doing Things I want to do  ::) Stupidity. Habits. Fear --> intense e-Motion which is not in-Motion.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 23, 2017, 05:53:51 am
If the Realisation I am this and all this goes deeper it feels like a playground
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 23, 2017, 11:16:33 am
So.... start playing with it...  ;) ;) ;) ::) :P

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 24, 2017, 03:08:15 am
What if I had an entirely different story.  I have ... in Germany we do not say I am afraid, we do usually say I have fear .. i have -- fear can be lost then -- get lost fear! Hm.. i do really have fear -- losing this story -- the favorite I've had so far (romance)BUT what if I played with all that ? Sure of not taking it too seriously , just playing like a child :) nothing is serious / is nothingness then serious ?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 25, 2017, 02:57:15 am
Look very closely at what you mean by ''serious''.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 25, 2017, 06:09:32 am
Life calls for a change, otherwise it will stay serious. The change that is called for might be called breakup but?  ??? Serious as in not moving, stagnant, unlively, judgemental BUT the - positive - so called memories of the so called relationship hunt me. You might say 'search for the me that is hunted by memories'. I have no clue  ??? Have no clue ..
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 25, 2017, 11:26:59 am
Can you just allow your self to be clueless...

Game Hint: Everyone else is.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 26, 2017, 06:00:35 am
If there is nothing left to do... no ego to Need to be fulfilled ... what am I here for?



Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 26, 2017, 06:13:04 am
Do you require a reason?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 26, 2017, 11:13:29 am
Gosh of Course not. There appears to be a hell lot of growth potential and growth in the human adulthood human experience. Am I right or am I right? Bla.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 26, 2017, 11:10:33 pm
What is ''right'' and what is '''wrong''? This is no simple matter. Please find out and let me know.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 27, 2017, 04:13:31 am
There is no right or wrong -- there is being refined more and more and then seeing alignment more and more, having fewer filters so to speak.

H/A is more complex than I thought, too simple for the complex mind or too complex for the simple mind. I can figure it out though, or release or whatever, all is too quiet now, too quiet. Too beautiful. The American Sublime did talk about that, didnt they
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 27, 2017, 04:14:56 am
No... there is wrong. At least in this experience, there is perceived wrong where the ego-me has to speak against something. But then that is right
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 27, 2017, 08:02:44 am
This is not very adultish to say but I have some Problems with the me/me-rules Kind of Person. My rules for me, and my rules for you --
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 28, 2017, 01:53:32 am
O.K. ... let me get this straight, you don't like their ''my rules for me, my rules for you'' attitude. This means that you have a set of rules that are different... not me/me.. however, you want others to be different, perhaps adopt your rules... your me/me rules that they shouldn't have me/me rules.

What I think is happening is that they are mirroring you rule set back to you and you are having challenges seeing your own rules... but I could be way wrong.

Sounds quite me-ish to me.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 28, 2017, 02:24:45 am
They mirror that I do not give  my character enough time to  make new rules, and make the rules I want .   And of course they Mirror my own arrogance . Also  I tend to remember circumstances where my body screamed and was full of stress in this relationship -- , but still I want to trust my body  if it says the person is good for you which it does from time to time . -  Which gets me to the point you made again :  why not a healthy happy relationship ?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 29, 2017, 03:45:20 am
I feel insane and my relationship attachment sickens me and there is no fun in it or in me and life :o Which gets me to the point --> I want to be sane, lose my relationship attachment and have fun
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 30, 2017, 04:24:15 am
The most fun Thing to do for me in this world is to love others. Sounds like fun!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 30, 2017, 07:48:24 am
Is it indeed possible that in the midst of the worst drama there is laughter ? Whoops - This is for entertainment only ?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 30, 2017, 08:39:24 am
Is that true?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 30, 2017, 09:20:14 am
Who knows
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 30, 2017, 09:22:43 am
I don't know if I exist, what me is, I don't know a thing expect maybe that this is and this is whatever it is whatever it is
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 01, 2017, 05:12:54 am
Listen closely and I will tell you the secret of this human dream.

It's not that you don't know such things... it's that such things are not knowable... indeed, nothing at all is knowable. You suffer because you seek to know... it's all quite pointless.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 02, 2017, 04:36:53 am
What is observable - at least for me but for others probably also - is that this life is changing rapidly. I don't have anything to hold on to - what a blast
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 02, 2017, 06:58:54 am
All holding on was made up anyways.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 02, 2017, 11:52:28 am
 :P Who knows
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 02, 2017, 09:26:23 pm
No one....  ::) ::) ::) ::) but that is sufficient.  ;) ;) ;) :-*

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 03, 2017, 08:46:25 am
Imho there are not a lot of stories left in this mind/whatever. Thus, what now? No hope, nowhere to go, nothing to proof. Uhm!  :P ?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 03, 2017, 11:39:37 am
What a blast  ::) Stories cannot hold  ::) proof: they change, within two minutes there are two contradicting thoughts at once --> one led to suffering, one to optimism, both not true
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 04, 2017, 09:00:23 am
I cannot let him go, I love him  ???
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 05, 2017, 07:16:10 am
Okay ... if i suffer I should make a better dream
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 07, 2017, 03:49:59 pm
You said that underneath big fear is a wonderful gem 💎 I guess if I were  humble I would let it take it's course . Not being humble I want it to take the shape I want .  Humble feels alright
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 08, 2017, 12:18:22 am
Yes, you cannot let him go, and it's impossible to hold on. Why bother expending energy trying.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 08, 2017, 08:17:02 am
It has to play itself out  >:( There is a lot of anger in me, Yoga helps  ;) I realize there is no such thing as free will. What is there then? I feel judged by other people, even if I am doing the judging myself (obviously -- not so much fun ** The movement seems to be away from such silliness into more depth, truth etc -- and an anger from playing small -- there is boredom but boredom is just a label I gave to something like denser energy. Oh wow, there just was the realization that words can come not close to any experience but they have to be used in as much detail as possible to even get the slightest insight into another's experience. Guess I will play more with words and details now!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 09, 2017, 01:43:06 pm
Relationship breakup  ??? no. This cannot be true. Help. Do not want to leave him behind. Life just happens I suppose. Nooooooo

No no no no no
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 10, 2017, 10:50:14 am
It is too much ; I need to learn H/A so that this body mind does not die of over pressure. I feel deep sadness concerning letting go of past memories of a past romantic relationship-- pressure in my chest -- and overwhelming fear where this life will lead
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 12, 2017, 07:27:04 am
Am i going mad or sane ?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 13, 2017, 03:55:55 am
Find out who cares and you will have your answer.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 13, 2017, 05:36:45 am
The question is the answer which is the the question and turtles on and on
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 13, 2017, 05:37:42 am
On and on :! Of course there is no one here- HOW could it be otherwise
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 13, 2017, 05:38:24 am
Nothing's dream
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 13, 2017, 05:40:24 am
And the crow said nevermore
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 13, 2017, 08:10:46 am
I have a very bad conscience concerning my relationship to a person I was supposed to love. I am suffering this - lies or not even knowing what to tell him / how but this guilt will kill me soon. He does not trust me and certainly shouldn't concerning that I still hide some facts. I feel very burdened- like I am a bad person and not trustworthy. Dear Jed,, could you help ?   
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 13, 2017, 11:19:05 am
Helped myself
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 14, 2017, 10:43:04 am
How does he come back to me? Is there a way? The more I want the less he will-  I know. I miss him . Thus my question : I want him to be happy and am not the one making him happy anymore - it would be selfish to even want him - okay got my answer I suppose
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 15, 2017, 08:44:07 am
Sounds like you are growing up. Good work.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 17, 2017, 08:31:36 am
Maybe ! Jed, how do I go to H/A without T/R, i know no one knows but this mind and body  NEED H/A before T/R or sth to calm the heart and nerves ! Tips ?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 18, 2017, 12:18:42 am
There are many things one can do and I teach them in the Series, but if you want a good place to start, learn to forgive everyone and everything, including self. Once you have don't that fully, get back to me.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. Fully means FULLY!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 18, 2017, 04:09:13 pm
You say experiences are just that -- experiences. Still, today, when the plane started, I tasted a sense of there is no I. It was wow, and it is still with me. I get a small Little knowing. Question is I have no question. There are no questions. Ill let you know if someday there will be questions. Right now: home
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 18, 2017, 09:30:43 pm
Happy trails to you....

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 20, 2017, 12:06:03 pm
Only questions bring me closer . How dies a world without shame look like , without second thoughts? I am you ain't I
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 20, 2017, 11:41:54 pm
Some things can't be put into words. You have to see for yourself.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 22, 2017, 06:31:28 am
So. How do I find out what I want (at least in H/A Terms). Is what I want something material? Can it always only be something material? In some Moments there is a seeing of this underlying reality and connectedness of everything, and it seems conversations are smoother and Moments are better. H/A might look like having fun, enjoying the moment, doing what I want, manifesting what I want (don't I always manifest what is wanted?). There are some beliefs in the way of the natural unfolding. Well, let's lose them once and for all
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 24, 2017, 01:16:31 am
Let go of everything, include that thought that you need to let go or anything... and there you will have ''it''.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 24, 2017, 03:34:12 am
All I can say is all is full of light  8) And the all is behind my eyes if there are any eyes, okay, I'll go with that for a while  :P
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 24, 2017, 04:02:51 am
Excellent... further...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 28, 2017, 05:16:04 am
Current source of suffering: certain ‚ha‘persons seem far out of reach, in a sense more worthy - happy , fulfilled etc - where I want to be - and if I am ‚there‘ (ha wise more open etc) they are with me there - feel this and pay me attention (how odd)- I will go for being more ha by myself as well and see what manifests
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 28, 2017, 10:00:22 am
H/A is beyond wanting to be where anyone else ''appears'' to be. It's where you are right now that counts.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 30, 2017, 10:43:27 am
I feel terribly lost and alone  ::) Where are my friends and lovers?  ::) What is wrong with me?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 30, 2017, 10:53:50 am
Friends and lovers are just stories, as is loneliness.

The only thing ''wrong'' with you is your stories...and the do not exist other than in your head. If you don't like your stories, change them.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 31, 2017, 01:47:57 pm
Funny Thing is I dropped the thought and they 'APPEARED'. Well, I guess I will go with the flow then
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 01, 2017, 02:45:08 am
How do you know they ''appeared'' or is that a misprint.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 02, 2017, 07:58:15 am
, there is no other. There logically cannot be any other. How freeing and how behind the eyes. Detachment
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 02, 2017, 08:00:46 am
Here it goes. How do I remove guilt from my consciousness? I feel guilty all the time, like I hide something from 'another' and I do not even know what it would be.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 02, 2017, 09:24:52 am
It obvious to me that you are guilty. You are guilty of all the ills of your friends, family, hometown, state, country... all the way up to the universe. I doubt if I could find a more guilty person on this forum, or anywhere for that matter. Now, DO NOT PROVE ME WRONG!

You task is to experience that guilt and don't what you are guilty of, because it is EVERYTHING.

Now, go do your work, experience that feeling fully, with total dedication to ''guilt''... just that. Now go do it!

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 06, 2017, 08:07:09 am
 ::) if there is truth nothing else matters
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 06, 2017, 10:09:07 am
Nothing else matters...regardless...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 16, 2017, 11:39:13 am
Drama just ....swoosh.... goes out of my life. Can't even remember what it feels like. How is this whole Thing not just an escape from reality? I understand that this subjective reality is all there is in this experience, 'my' experience but others DO exist, DO have opinions, DO think I am less than they are (here we go again, just a pinch of Drama)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 16, 2017, 12:09:39 pm
Just read something you said on Emotion vs Feeling and suddenly I wanted to say 'how beautiful' to know, 'how freeing' but as I write this it does not take it justice. It is not explainable, I am too small, too stuck in words
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 16, 2017, 09:16:48 pm
I suggest that if you are stuck for words the don't bother with them. Just with with what appears to arise.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 22, 2017, 06:41:40 am
Pretty cool to be everything and everyone but hey, Maya will fire back instantly if I tell them  ::) Them... Weird world I live in. So reality Wakes up to reality  >:( ?  :D Hm :-X
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 22, 2017, 08:11:03 am
Shhhhhh......
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 24, 2017, 01:27:15 am
I fear embarrassment and at the same time long for it deeply
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 24, 2017, 07:00:13 am
Dear bumbling fool:

... there, embarrassed enough  ??? ??? ???

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 24, 2017, 07:52:00 am
Whatever ??? X)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 25, 2017, 12:43:07 am
 :P :P :P
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 26, 2017, 09:04:17 am
I remember you saying something like 'People sense it when you are not in your own store' and you said to be gentle withem when they jump in without you asking for it (or did I?). There is the tendency to go into resistance, and the ego creates this Story as well as a Picture of the other Person of being somehow a blockage and hindrancce (to what?). Be water my friend  :)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 26, 2017, 06:24:54 pm
There are no blockages, none at all... other than those created by mind.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 27, 2017, 02:08:28 am
Wow! Freeing!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 27, 2017, 04:00:11 am
 :o :o :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 02, 2017, 02:03:43 am
Forget free will, there is none. Still, would love to know some more. It feels like I know, Things just unfold as I felt they would go (did I?), still I do not have a say (do I), in the matter. Is there matter?  ;D :D Imho there is a certain draw to certain desires, or let me call them rather: attractions. There is an attraction to certain Things, towns, People .. but more of a 'this might be a plausible direction'. Endless possibilities but in the end only one way. Forgiving feels easy, still there are desires for certain experiences (or are These just Things that will lead me to how my life should unfold anyway?),  a wish for more solid surroundings (in the form of People). The I will call it 'thing' that is in the way of unfoldment is always the Feeling of 'I am not good enough', 'Why would I just be blessed in this way'? But I am. Guess when I truly let go of this obstructive thoughts, the ego will vanish into infinity, this is the fear... not the 'not good enough'. The 'not good enough' might be the root of this character. Funny how I answer my own questions  :-X
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 02, 2017, 07:19:44 am
Quite common really...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 03, 2017, 06:46:52 am
Can you explain something to me? You say that after letting go of the I, you can create your own I and have fun with it. How is that supposed to go? I do not get it
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 03, 2017, 06:53:39 am
I know I know it myself. Why would I even ask ?  ::) :) :) :)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 04, 2017, 02:32:47 am
All sense of ''I'', the person, that you who you think you are is a creation... why not make you own up with a little more awareness... create one that is more fun, more loving, more clever, more whatever... it's not real... not one single atom is real... so why not play with it.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 06, 2017, 09:28:28 am
Dear Mr Mckenna/Jed

what would I do with all the free time if the mind does not have anything to worry about anymore?

yours sincerely
a friend
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 06, 2017, 10:20:55 pm
You would experience the peace that passeth all understanding. Your body would feel release from the life long chronic struggle to maintain the dream and your illusions of self control and importance. Words are meaningless here though... try it and then report back.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 10, 2017, 01:47:00 pm
No one gives a ... about me at all. None. I have huge waves of pain coming, tears, attached to past Drama/Trauma. I am so angry.. Okay, dear Jed, if H/A means living a fulfilled life, what am I doing wrong?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 11, 2017, 01:32:38 am
Everything... because you aren't seeing any of the benefits of H/A. And you might as well suck it up, there are only dream characters and they only like you when you can meet their need for attention.... which it appears you aren't. Think about it.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 11, 2017, 08:43:01 am
- thank you, jed   :)

in the way of going H/A is my own need for acceptance. - huge fear of being 'found out' (do not even know of what exactly), and of being judged negatively accordingly. Fear of hurting others.. fear of losing others. The body weighs tons since it started with this paranoia (has not been there from the beginning),

But there is also an experience of an unusual sense of huge generosity towards others
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 12, 2017, 02:35:04 am
Sounds fine to me.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 17, 2017, 04:32:22 am
I know I am the guru... Still, there is a Need for outside help - from you. At least today. I am afraid 'others' judge me, what I've done, what I write here, cannot love me, abandon me, 'shame' me and thus never being happy-- 'Wrong' relationships end but there is a wish for a relationship with a special man (well, sure, this is blocking everything). How could I ever act this small(y)?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 17, 2017, 08:31:07 am
To everything you say, I answer ''who care?'' which is not intended to sound cold, but to have you reflect upon.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 18, 2017, 05:29:30 am
Probably no one cares because nothing happens. I do not want to hurt people but I do not even know if I hurt them more with digging things up or hurt them more with not digging them up but someday they might show themselves to them and then they would be hurt. I want to be honest with my sister  :P
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 18, 2017, 10:54:21 am
Stop wanting to be honest with anyone. Wanting never did anything for anyone. Get honest with yourself first... then see what happens.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 26, 2017, 09:43:38 am
I get it that I do not have control. This is actually freeing.at the same time there is a clinging to the old persona because of course this is all very much supported by surrounding so-called people, especially family.I get irritated a lot— Unless something happens what purpose Do desires have? They do not serve any purpose — Other than directing energy? the closer I come to myself in this moment the easier it is to just let it be. Then it unfolds but there is no clinging, rather a gratefulness —The sense that I am responsible for other people’s opinions leaves gradually —There is even the thought of being not of service to them in anyway if I would treat them like little glass dolls —  I guess I am able to handle each situation that comes my way. Something here still fears  negative judgments and being called insane but the other direction feels like self depreciation .  Other than that I judge myself as being too serious 🧐
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 26, 2017, 10:11:14 am
Thanks for sharing. Sounds like you are growing and learning. Be patient.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 27, 2017, 04:50:34 am
It is actually quite funny that wanting does not make sense in any way. The only thing that appears to be right is to do what appears to be, and say what appears to be, like a puppet! ... like I did my whole life. Awesome! Not. Scary!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 27, 2017, 05:44:45 am
 ;) ;) ;) ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 01, 2018, 12:55:08 pm
 There has to be a different way to look at my personality and mistakes without the seriousness, so that the Burden gets lightened
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 01, 2018, 11:31:28 pm
Start with realizing that your personality and mistakes are not yours. There is no ''you'' as you think it is who could have such things. What is a mistake? Really. If you are talking about it, you use the term, now please define it.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 02, 2018, 05:09:37 am
It is very interesting to look at words and see whether actually really come from . It probably just means to take something that happened the wrong way or have a definition about something
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 03, 2018, 02:53:07 am
 ;) ;) ;) ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 05, 2018, 02:10:50 pm
I got myself into toxic behaviours, paranoia, being treated like **** and huge fear of what others think. I do not want this, why would I want this? Still, the fear of my past 'being found out' stops me from living my life as I want it now (others might judge my past toxic behaviours, but that is why I started the toxic behaviour in the first place). I want to be the Person I really want to be, honest and all, and not judge myself, doesn't work so well, circling throug my mind in an endless Loop of 'others who judge (or moreso WILL JUDGE) me negatively and do not like me and 'broke up' with me are right'. This is not me, this is not even Close to self love
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 06, 2018, 01:53:22 am
Self love is highly over-rated because there is no such thing as ''self''.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 06, 2018, 03:41:01 am
Okay, sure, then judgements would not matter at all. Nothing would matter at all. But Love? Rather stupid to go on with non optimal behaviour and expecting the world and life to Change but intelligence is often underrated  ::) okay, let's Change this life around --
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 07, 2018, 01:18:59 am
Do you think you can really change anything? Please clarify.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 03:31:23 am
No - no Control. Resisting means suffering, yes? Then I resist a hell lot
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 03:33:14 am
I do not know anything  :D  :-\  :-[  :'(  :)
Except maybe that the stories are not true, I wish they were, for hope purposes - no hope? Really?  :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 03:39:40 am
Some hope?  ??? Some?  :-\
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 03:59:19 am
How could we do this to each other? Taking the opinion about someone as the 'real thing'? I have this weird sense of opening to something, maybe just forgetting about the control-issues for a moment, feels freer
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 04:10:23 am
Anything can happen and I do not know nothing. Am I going crazy?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 04:10:45 am
This is all too crazy - says I
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 04:11:49 am
The only reason I still want to project some 'normal-ness' to the 'world/other people' is so I do not get instituitionalized  ???
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 04:41:41 am
I want to grab something, hold on to something. How can the memories 'I have' be anymore real than the night dream last night? Night dreams feel really real at times - emotions hold them there. Maya holds everything so firmly in place, making assumptions about everything - why doesn't everyone scream 'what is this place? What is going on here?' Floating around alone in space and no one sees they're doing the same?  ???

Regarding manifestations: how do I manifest what I want? I know what I have here is what I want, what if I want a stable lasting relationship, and other stable relationships? Acting along feels tiring. Am I dreaming this whole thing up? O these darn control issues -- these darn 'I think I have control' issues.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 07, 2018, 08:35:04 am
Thanks for sharing... now what  ??? ??? ???
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 07, 2018, 08:56:35 am
I don't know , no one knows - beautiful, thanks Jed!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 08, 2018, 02:48:24 am
 ::) my inner void keeps on knocking

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 08, 2018, 03:27:51 am
 ??? This sense of not doing feels 'lush' ..  :D
Everything is as is as is forever lush
No importance in the I-thought at all
Might as well trust
The lush-ness
of this

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 08, 2018, 04:05:33 am
 ;) ;) ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 08, 2018, 10:21:42 am
The river is fast and I am holding on to a straw. Cannot hold it much longer

Feel the pull to be in a different environment, cannot leave til end of Feb though

If what I seek is seeking me, cannot the right environment come closer ? Thanks
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 08, 2018, 10:31:05 am
Everything I get is basically due to luck and fretting about getting anything is basically insanity --
Doing happens, worrying happens and does not make sense
'I have to get out of this place' is a thought stopping the current experience and what needs to be done
Hope is entertaining
Creativity is fun and gives a sense of bliss and at the same time a sense of control+ sense of nocontrol (how paradoxical again, thank you weird words)
Words are just happenings
Clueless forever and ever and ever, some chocholate now  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 08, 2018, 12:06:03 pm
Chocolate is good!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 09, 2018, 02:20:24 am
Mirror mirror... lucky me that I do not have one. Something's missing though without one. Funny that I always thought 'we are one' + 'you are me' was esoteric talk, going 'further' into the darkness or light, who knows  :-\ ::) ;D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 09, 2018, 02:37:07 am
To receive the divine accident I guess I have to paddle along and not expect anything  ::) Breathing deeply. Paddling along... and having fun while I do that because I do -- seems to be that removing the seriousness from the equation does that
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 09, 2018, 02:42:17 am
Now that I reflect it is always further, further, further  8) I suppose it is more fun to meet 'people' and let them be as they are,

Seriousness is my sickness from time to time, putting that sunglasses down  8)

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 09, 2018, 02:42:56 am
It's all just talk until it isn't.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 09, 2018, 04:55:55 am
Each song I listen to is on awekening. So awaken me. Wake up wake up wake up, knocking form the inside, does not work, maybe it does, bla bla
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 09, 2018, 07:38:39 am
 ;) ;) ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 09, 2018, 02:14:04 pm
 ::) ??? :o 8) :D and then Crash and burn?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 10, 2018, 02:56:53 am
You'll see...  ;D ;D ;D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 10, 2018, 03:40:06 am
I am starting to believe (oh oh) that consensus reality is the real reality and the only reason I am here is so to distract me from my burden of self-loathing, people who I have to please and people who will not forgive me and I have wronged
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 10, 2018, 04:05:22 am
Maybe the day will come when someone tells me: what? You still believe in memories? (like believing in Santa Clause). But til then, playing along  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 10, 2018, 08:22:52 am
Dear Jed, this feels weird and familiar at the same time. Doesn't Namaste mean 'the God in me recognizes the God in you'? Everyone I would suppose gets this that they are this. IT is strange to see them not recognizing but to whom is it strange? What keeps me from going further is a feeling of 'I have to make up for something', 'I have to tell others about every mistake I made', 'I have to tell them how bad I was and am, what a terrible PERSON I was'. Because there has been tremendous hurt done to other beings, especially one, still feel like owning them and others more 'revealing of the truth', owing them something. Breathing a lot am I, doing my responsibilities, enjoying what I can -
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 11, 2018, 03:37:56 am
The identification with 'problems' sits deep. Always this way of grasping at something, it does not make any sense. What Comes Comes, what goes goes as the saying goes. Let's see what life throws at me  :P Thank you for not answering the last post if it was intentional but then again there are no mistakes. Your answer now will probably be ' ;) ;) ;)' or something in those lines. Life is always delighting and surprising me  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 12, 2018, 02:20:00 am
I get it, but of course you realize you are completely full of bull. You know you don't have to do anything and yet your denial of that keeps you thinking you must to something. The only thing you really, really, really have to do is nothing. This is all being done for you. Where is your gratitude?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 12, 2018, 07:27:49 am
I feel the gratitude, yes  :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 12, 2018, 12:13:49 pm
I'd rather be silent
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 13, 2018, 05:28:05 am
Your idea of silent is just another kind of noise. Real silence is not an experience, it just is an ''is''.

Enjoy.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 13, 2018, 05:39:20 am
When I look around me there are immsense blessings. When I look into my mind, there is just a tornado of past memories, guilt and comparing myself to other 'better people'
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 13, 2018, 05:47:49 am
Not only 'better people' but also 'better lifes', 'better everything', I am so blessed I know  8) I will take these Things as an Invitation to look deeper  8)

Thank you for your time + presence  :D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 13, 2018, 08:10:32 am
My pleasure....

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 13, 2018, 11:10:58 am
This is all so much bigger than I thought, thank you so much and have a save journey, might come back here, who knows  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 14, 2018, 12:14:09 am
Yes, who knows...   ??? ??? ??? ???

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 21, 2018, 07:20:55 am
How do I not give power to someone who has a rigid opinion of me?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 21, 2018, 08:11:23 am
Tattoo this on your brain:

WHAT SOMEONE THINKS OF YOU IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS... PERIOD.

It all their problem, not yours. Forgive them and let go... move along little doggie.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 21, 2018, 11:30:17 am
What happened happened. What others will think they will think. Time to give up

Love ya too
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 22, 2018, 12:09:00 am
Did anything really happen?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 22, 2018, 02:56:30 am
Not really  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 23, 2018, 06:06:41 am
To be honest I don't know. I don't even know what I am doing on this forum. I do not know who is enlightened and who is not. I cannot see anything except my own experience and what I can say about that is that I am the ultimate people pleaser and am tired of it -- and all of that only to get some attention by people who cannot love me and judge me, or who I think will judge me. I am tired of this life, really tired of this life, and cannot live for others anymore. I do not believe in staying in my own business or store -- sorry for ranting, just the whole of what is going on  >:(
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 23, 2018, 07:03:25 am
EXCELLENT MY MAN or perhaps MY GIRL:

Get really pissed off... it's an great start... then what?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 23, 2018, 07:15:05 am
 

Then what? Start again
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 23, 2018, 08:46:02 am
There is no going back -- it is inevitable  ;) might as well die happily, peacefully, forgivingly but death will occur (Drama queen Modus on)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 24, 2018, 02:02:27 am
I suggest you put your energy into bringing nicer people into your life.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 24, 2018, 03:32:43 am
I know the energy would be far wiser spend -- probably in any way that is non-destructive -- sure sure. I suppose it takes some momentum. What you think?

love, k
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 25, 2018, 04:31:20 am
I've read a lot about your relationship posts. What you repeat again and again is that they are all fake and believe me  8), I get that already at a gut level. Everything is fake but words cannot convey how so, or how devastatiingly so. What is a recipe for a good working long lasting stable 'let us rather call it' partnership? Probably should ask myself but asking you non-existent Jed, might be interesting too  ;) Thank you, love, k
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 25, 2018, 09:09:51 am
Find out exactly ''who'' wants exactly ''what'' and the cost you are willing to pay for this ''partnership''.

Don't think your partnership is going to be free... that's just a silly wish held by many and sold by most... none of who know what they are talking about. You might consider how much attention you seek and how much you give. That's a big component. Do the math and you will have a very good idea of your chances of success.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 25, 2018, 10:03:17 am
But if I am really really really honest, I mean really really really, I do not care so much about relationship at this point  :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 26, 2018, 01:23:25 am
It doesn't make much sense to care about something that is a complete fiction. How can one ''relate'' to one when there is only one... pretend there are two and then the fun begins.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 26, 2018, 08:39:48 am
 Time and time again you say to enjoy the ride. But after you know that you have to dissolve it’s a pretty morbid ride isn’t it,?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 27, 2018, 03:04:15 am
Sometimes the feeling is there that I want something but then I let that go and get a sense of peace together with ‚the dream will do whatever and I’ll let it“. I suppose the gods know better what is good for this life 🎭🎨
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 30, 2018, 02:34:59 am
Simply go in the direction that brings up the most fear... and jump right into the middle, recognizing that your fear is total illusion.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 08, 2018, 04:43:03 am
Sitting on the dock of the bay wasting time... :-*


Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 08, 2018, 08:04:29 am
Just want to write out some epiphany I just had. One thing I seem to want to do is do what others want me to do. I got in a lot of weird situations that way. Now, I am actually afraid not to do what others want me to do while at the same time being afraid of doing what they want me to do -- because: it does not matter, not this, nor that,  8) >:( ::) :D :)  I did it to stay in the dream because finding out that it does not matter if I make others happy/content/worried/fearful/hopeless/hopeful/angry and projecting everything onto me does not make a difference & that is what is scary - nothin' matters

I sounds pretty far away from everything right now - almost like talking for another person
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 08, 2018, 08:05:41 am
I do not want others to pull me into their drama & dreams
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 08, 2018, 08:06:23 am
I am never in their drama. Nothing is happening
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 08, 2018, 08:07:51 am
Hand me some (raw food) cocktails by the sea side, I'm dying

It does not really make sense to do anything - what for? This sounds depressing and might be and feels sweetly sane

What am I afraid to face? Actually, there are things I want to experience - do I just let them happen? I am at the same time afraid they will
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 09, 2018, 06:59:37 am
My imaginary friend. I am really tired. I avoided something for years it seems. But what?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 09, 2018, 07:03:46 am
I avoided to see that my happiness is not dependend on anything
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 09, 2018, 07:06:50 am
Afraid to die, afraid to live, afraid to lie, afraid to be honest, afraid to not know what honest means, afraid to hurt others, afraid to love them, afraid to be loved by them, afraid to have them, afraid to lose them, afraid to have children, afraid to have no children, afraid of a farm, afraid of the big City life. Afraid to be famous, afraid to not be famous. Afraid to eat healthy, afraid to not eat healthy. Afraid of being stupid, afraid of being to intelligent. Afraid of getting everything I want, everything, afraid of not getting it.

Hello, my Name is a.fraid, a. fraud
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 09, 2018, 07:20:01 am
I will dress this body and ego in beautiful colours and go to my funeral
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 09, 2018, 07:29:13 am
I have been pondering the question of what I want. Just to see that what I want is this, plus I do not know what I want, plus peace is. Still sitting on the dock of the bay

Feels like a calm sea, a Feeling of being able to handle anything, gentleness, oh and not being too serious with my character is beautiful - she does her b est
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 11, 2018, 10:36:45 am
There is really nothing that I can do, nothing I really want (wanting = desperation), just enjoying happening for me until not happening for me or maybe nothing happening, and I know nothing is happening. Just living a simple life as far as possible  ::) What a great English, sorry for that :)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 13, 2018, 04:50:47 am
 ;) ;) ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 13, 2018, 05:23:28 am
What a surprise, enjoying the show, thanks for all your work here, and have fun and enjoy, see you  :D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 13, 2018, 07:32:56 am
Cheers....
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 21, 2018, 05:25:42 am
The thought of how others could judge me if they found out 'this and that' keeps me from enjoying this moment right now, this life right now. It  keeps me from experiencing this life fully. I do not know what this would have to do with T/R but this is where I stand. Not very pleasant  :P love to you, k
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 24, 2018, 09:04:12 am
Nothing has anything to do with T/R. It is free of any obligations or encumbrances. You will get ''it'' all in good time.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 24, 2018, 09:42:37 am
What else can be done but see myself with humour or meet others with humour, make this place nicer. Of Course there is experience , and the only experience is manifested through thoughts, without thoughts there is nothing but I like my thoughts, my persona so far, and maybe one day will die, who knows - like Emerson suggests the other is only there to provoke us or we provoke them, other than that everything is fluid all the time, like we are parts of nature & nature is pretty forgiving. flowers to you!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 24, 2018, 11:34:25 am
....back at ya...
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 28, 2018, 12:55:47 pm
I feel I am being drawn into more and more suitable - to me, my character? - situations, places - all changes fast

I feel like in a Woody Allen movie but I am still in it, not outside of it. It is too real. Also, there is a sense of deep relaxation and knowingness of no free will. All opens up before these eyes
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 28, 2018, 12:58:04 pm
I repeat myself often: there is no free will. Seems like, I still have to get that on a deeper level. No. free. will.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 01, 2018, 12:44:13 pm
Stick with it... further.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 02, 2018, 08:29:21 am
Relaxing... relieving, reveiling, thanks sanks
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 02, 2018, 08:30:31 am
How could I ever be this serious in life. Thus not make sense at all.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 03, 2018, 04:39:09 am
Quite amazing....

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 11, 2018, 04:13:06 am
I am annoyed with not enjoying my life & making other opinions and judgements my own. Annoyed with wasting time not doing things I love, annoyed with projecting a future all the time. Annoyed with not living my life to the fullest
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 13, 2018, 04:01:14 am
Great, then just be annoyed, I don't think you have fully explored your annoyedness. Does this pixel (.) annoy you, I mean really annoy you? You need to get nuclear annoyed and enjoy the heck out of it. DO NOT resist your annoyance or I will be annoyed as I can be wtih you. I'll even ban you if you stop being annoyed.... i.e., I will get very, very annoyed with you.

Love ya, (in an annoying sorta way), Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 19, 2018, 03:41:14 pm
There is nothing really to get, so why play along at all?

At the end point of pain there is, maybe really nothing? I would rather stay in the pain than face nothing, or go on with nothing to gain - do you know what I mean? I know that I know nothing & do not know where this will end ... Still, I do not get how everyone else pretends to know what they do, are they really so in trance?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 20, 2018, 07:54:17 am
Forget that everyone else pretends, it none of your business... repeat that ten times... ''It's none of my business what others think''.

Love ya, Jed

P.S. If that doesn't help, take two aspirin and go to bed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 20, 2018, 09:28:44 am
I know what you mean  :D It is so meaningless  :D Thank you and take care friend,  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 20, 2018, 10:49:00 am
Back at ya...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 24, 2018, 06:56:35 am
Good afternoon from a happy content place, Jed.  :D ;)

As I can see it, what matters is that I let go of the need to know. There is an urge here to spend time with me, in my uncorrupted nature. The less drama I experience, the more I feel I should create some  :-X ??? Where will all this non-drama-ness lead, oh goodness
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 24, 2018, 07:03:06 am
edit: no need for drama at all. No, I'm done with that. Let me see what opens up in front of me
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 24, 2018, 07:04:05 am
editedit: still, I would love to play some more in the confinements of this life and myself without drama. Which means without drama queens
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 24, 2018, 11:04:40 am
If you want to clean up your dream, get rid of the detritus and be a little (or a lot) happier, GET RID OF THE DRAMATIC DRIFTWOOD IN YOUR LIFE. Don't complain to me that it would hurt people, be painful, etc. I ain't buying it because you are already in pain. Where is the logic in taking care of everyone but you? (Please re-read).

Well... what prompted that response Jed? Crap, I don't know.

Love ya, Jed

P.S. Worry free, drama free, teflon like kinda guy. Try it, and I assure you, you will love it.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 24, 2018, 12:05:07 pm
 :) oh gosh, well, that is what she needed to hear. Thank you  :-*

Teflon... if you knew how well this desribes happiness in my world, well maybe you did
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 24, 2018, 07:37:47 pm
.... could be.. hmmmm..

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 18, 2018, 09:44:10 am
Wow, Jed, it has been a long time.

I am hung up on that I once lied to a friend of mine and that I on the contrary want to be open and honest with life and everyone, and that I do not want to tell him directly but if the situations comes up, and it is actually pretty irrelevant. Guess I just want to be open and honest and hung up on this past 'mistake'. This does not have anything to do with enlightenment though, whatever enlightenment is ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on June 19, 2018, 12:37:17 am
If it bothers you then do something about it, if it doesn't bother you then whats the bother. I think you like that self-importance of it all. Words lie the moment they are spoken. So what, we still need a tool so we can pretend we communicate.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 20, 2018, 05:17:34 am
I think there is a difference between lieing consciously and being aware of it (deception), and not deceiving
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on June 20, 2018, 08:08:20 am
I understand, however, you are just re-arranging deck chairs on the Titanic. Focus on who is deceiving and who is being deceived. Once you find out the ''who'' then you will have all the answers you ever needed.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 20, 2018, 10:51:09 am
I don't know
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on June 20, 2018, 12:55:06 pm
Who is it who doesn't know?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 20, 2018, 01:13:36 pm
It is pretty relaxed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 20, 2018, 01:14:48 pm
Blank. Invisible
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on June 21, 2018, 12:07:48 am
 :o :o :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 10, 2018, 12:16:41 pm
I almost always had money issues  ::)

Now,  I am currently in debt and have to find money fast, otherwise I have to just shift debts and have debt with other persons, if you know what I mean.

Maybe this mind body personality does not feel itself to be worthy of money. Eitherway, the debts are there, and I do not want others to suffer because I do/did
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Trey on July 10, 2018, 04:24:18 pm
Hi There:

Please start your own thread and stick to it. Commenting on someone else's thread is not permitted.
Thanks in advance.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 12, 2018, 08:35:52 am
I still do have big issues with money which need to be fixed fast

I still trust in life that it will sort everything out

I still feel like there are people who offend me in some way and I don't know how to behave towards them -- I live for me not for someone's ideas of how I should be or have behaved  :P
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on July 12, 2018, 12:30:55 pm
Soo... what's the problem?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 12, 2018, 01:15:45 pm
:) Everything. I might hurt people when I have to borrow money. My plane might crash. Everyone might laugh at me or dispise me. I might be really bad at my job if I find someone. People might find out that I am horrible with money and that I am totally naive. At least, when the plane does not crash. Stories! Pfft. Not even mine

I am just wrong, flaud, immature, childish, weak and every other label. Also, a liar and manipulator, and a dreamer as well as - did I mention - naive?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on July 13, 2018, 12:54:51 am
Assuming I am writing to a human being, and not some kind of AI, please tell me something I don't know. Everyone has been, at some time, guilty or all the good or bad traits you mention... so what? I'm not impressed by your sense of uniqueness or seeking to somehow build personal importance. Get over yourself. You are not nearly as important as you think you are.

Let me ask you this.... where will all your concerns, worries, mind and body be in say... a thousand years?

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 13, 2018, 01:17:12 am
Sure, all dust in the wind, I get that I'm not important. Still, I do not want to take from others, and did. Probably I just want a magic spell to get the money I got from them, or earn more money to give to them *magic*

Thanks, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on July 13, 2018, 02:46:47 am
 :D :D :D :P
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 24, 2018, 04:29:47 pm
What if I need money, health, and fun and fulfillment, is there a way to let it in?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on July 25, 2018, 01:10:33 am
Yes, there are some ways. They focus on releasing the objects, attitudes and memories that are in the way. You can vanish identities that block the flow in life. Primarily the identity of I am unworthy. That's the biggest one for most folks. Also being grateful and allowing of what is can be helpful.

Love ya, Jed.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 26, 2018, 01:47:35 am
What if these identities that block it are so difficult to get rid off? What if I want to earn money, and do not like my life right now at all, and do not even know if I am in the right place on earth right now? What if this feels all so wrong? Where is the flow in that


I can see in my surroundings that I really am unworthy, otherwise my life would not contain lack of money, lack of self expression, lack of fulfilling relationships and so on. I get tossed around by 'I am not enough' all the time
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on July 26, 2018, 03:11:47 am
If you are really serious about dropping that identity then join the Series. It's very effective.

Love ya, Jed

P.S. Just moaning about it is not going to do anything about it.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 31, 2018, 10:58:26 am
I get the hang of changing these patterns, living life fully has always been something I wanted but do not know where to start ::) :P
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 01, 2018, 02:35:12 am
A way will arise if you are really serious.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 02, 2018, 03:30:05 pm
I want it.

I do take criticism too serious at times

Thus, yes, the unworthiness pitfall

I want to release all the resistance, flow freely so to speak but the 'i am not enough' comes in, sometimes more, sometimes less

To the point where I ask myself: what is it I really want? What is conditioned, what is my wish?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 03, 2018, 12:47:50 am
Remember, everything you are talking about is part of this dream. What has a beginning has an end and anything with those qualities is not real. I suggest you focus on what never started and never ends.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 03, 2018, 01:54:02 am
Sure it does and everything always changes.

Okay, yes, maybe it is about playing with all of it since it will be gone forever anyhow at one point
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 03, 2018, 03:29:06 am
It is more of finding what I really want and in a sense what I really want is exploring what I am, growing, travelling, finding out and being curious. Thus the whole 'I do not know what I want' is an excuse for finding the courage to start
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 03, 2018, 05:12:17 am
Finding what you really want is a heck of a task. You have been told what you ''should'' want every day of your life... told what should make you happy and all that good stuff. Finding a genuine want is doable, but challenging.

Of course, there really is only one... and One


Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 04, 2018, 10:45:49 am
There is only one, yes.

Thus if I do not manifest what I need it is because I am standing in the way of the flow of life  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 05, 2018, 02:20:33 am
No one is standing in the way of anything, there is no you and life doesn't have a 'way'. It just is a dream.

Love ya, Jed.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 05, 2018, 03:32:25 am
You wrote before that there is a way to let health, money and fulfillment in

I know that everyone thinks what they think, thus it is what it is... it makes me mad when people judge me as weak, cute, shy or any of these life paralyzing ideas.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 05, 2018, 03:44:02 am
Yes, the way to let it in is realize there is no you and all that you seek are just concepts. Even a ''person'' is a concept.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 05, 2018, 04:17:19 am
 :D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 06, 2018, 12:07:46 pm
It feels kind of hard to let go of the identity of feeling like someone is standing in the way of me living a life I want

Like fighting windmills that might or might not exist in someone's mind but should not be in the way of living as I want



Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 06, 2018, 12:18:45 pm
If no one is living this life, no one is living your life, no one is living his/her life, how come it feels so real?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 06, 2018, 12:21:56 pm
I am a person. Am I a person?

I am not a person. Am I not a person?

I can see that nothing is looking into nothing, if there are no labels attached. It feels so real though!

Seems like the two are one and the same

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 06, 2018, 09:34:50 pm
Have you ever had a dream that, in that moment, felt very, very real?

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 07, 2018, 02:15:12 am
Sure

Love ya too
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 07, 2018, 06:07:06 am
How do you know this is not very similar. A form of waking dream? Where you more alive in the dream or waken state?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 07, 2018, 06:39:52 am
It totally is similar. I am the only one here. Always. Sure. In the dream, or what you want to call it.

THE ONE
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 07, 2018, 03:26:36 pm
I feel beautiful most of the time but I am afraid that others might find me ugly and thus, I am in a prison of my own self perception and this is not even real
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 07, 2018, 11:20:42 pm
At least you are aware of it....  ::) ::) ::) :o

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. That's a pretty good start.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 08, 2018, 12:31:41 pm

Oh, and beauty is important. What is beauty anyway? Attraction? Feeling love(d)? Who knows  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 08, 2018, 12:32:50 pm
I want to have fun and not identify this much with looks, character, or anything

But it is more fun to feel attractive than not  ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 09, 2018, 03:52:07 am
More fun but no more real than anything else.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 09, 2018, 05:38:52 am
My old 'problem' comes around again and again: it is: I might hurt people with whatever I said when I was 13/16/19/now, whatever. Like my opinions I once mentioned which might or might not be valid anymore, might hurt them. It's bogus, yes. It's annoying, yes indeed.

Don't you think that there is such a thing as what beauty means? Like health is usually more beautiful, or people who smile a lot
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 09, 2018, 06:05:29 am
Everything you speak of is within a dream. Just realizing that takes the sting out of it. Be the observer and drop you victim mentality.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 10, 2018, 04:36:52 am
 ???

Sure... the sting is totally optional  :o ???

I am afraid I might hurt others, still. With at some point being angry with someone, and then feeling like I am untrustworthy because I talked maybe with another person about them

 ???
To be honest, why?  ???
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 10, 2018, 05:44:56 am
Sounds like a giant pile of horse manure... hey, just guru-speak.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 10, 2018, 06:08:22 am
Oh it is. It is it is it is

Maybe I am in disservice if I think that others cannot handle what life throws at them
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 10, 2018, 06:11:11 am
I have this thing going where I am supposed to make no mistakes, be entirely trustworthy, never be a bad person  :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 11, 2018, 02:06:37 am
In this dream, such things are impossible. When you are T/R they are all that are possible.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 11, 2018, 06:27:35 am
This one hit home
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 12, 2018, 05:42:55 am
Bingo bango...  ::) ::) ::) :o :o :o :o :P
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 20, 2018, 03:57:11 am
I am still carrying this guilt ridden persona  :P :D
Keeps me from enjoying my life.

Like I can hurt others, disappoint them
#
#
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 20, 2018, 09:17:39 am
Good luck on doing the impossible. They hurt themselves when their stories don't materialize as expected. You might be a participant but are certainly not the cause of their grief. If the don't own it, that too has nothing to do with you.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 20, 2018, 10:54:28 am
It seems like I am still searching although I have these moments of rest where there seems to be noone here. Then I go create something new or recreate something old, coming back to rest in the nothingness again. But still, something is seeking  8) seeking seeking... maybe this is just the movement into a new creation, new growth  :P

oh my, this is big  ???
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 20, 2018, 12:56:00 pm
I am unworthy of living fully
unworthy
of letting go
unworthy of forgiving myself and others
unworthy unworthy unworthy, not enough, bla bla

I insulted someone I love who I want to feel happy
bla bla bla
I cannot forgive myself

I want to live the life I want
but I cannot
because I am not forgiven

and will never be

free
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 21, 2018, 02:36:17 am
O.K.. but I know differently.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 21, 2018, 04:14:23 am
How so  ???

The sky is blue
The feet are cold
The bird is in the sky
The plane is in the sky
The children play
The lavender smells nicely
Bees fly around

I am unworthy.
Of.
Me.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 21, 2018, 10:59:44 am
All you speak of is in a dream... and I lovingly respond... so what?

Seriously, so what?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 22, 2018, 01:33:27 am
Following your last question

----- so what :P ::)

I 'I really need to trust myself and let that child-guilt-manner go for good'

take care and love you.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 22, 2018, 01:45:55 am
Less talk.... more do....  ::) ::) ::)

Love ya, Jed.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 25, 2018, 08:11:43 am
 ;D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 25, 2018, 08:35:43 am
I have a question for you, Jed.

I have a deep seated inadequacy within me, taken on from family and peers, especially family. It is like shame, I feel it almost entirely linked to the German culture - they seem to be pretty shame based. I behave small within this family

There are people who I can be around - actors, artists - who usually do not judge that much where I feel much more peaceful and shameless

Is there any question here?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 25, 2018, 10:56:52 am
Hi G:

Well... on a human dream sense... you are sharing something I have felt since childhood... and I am serious about it.

All races and nationalities carry specific guilt, challenges and also rather wonderful qualities. It just comes with the culture, and none of it is real. It is apparent and pretty obvious to those who are hm..... more awake. However, it is of now consequence. Qualities of the human dream are still dream material. Go beyond all that because it is not real. Seek what is real... what was before you appeared to be born and what will remain after you appear to die.

Love ya, Jed.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 25, 2018, 12:06:46 pm
Thank you

Feels like some homebased source, what I might be, something always new and always here and without any description

Maybe 'being' takes care of the resistance, even of the resisting people
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 26, 2018, 12:32:57 am
Realize there are no ''people'' and you will have your answers.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 26, 2018, 01:52:45 am
That did not go to the guts yet
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 26, 2018, 02:19:21 am
Remember, that which has a beginning also has an end... and... anything that begins and ends is not real. Find that which is real.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 26, 2018, 04:21:28 am
I cannot find it
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 26, 2018, 10:13:12 am
Correct, the I cannot find anything. So, give up that I and see what arises.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 27, 2018, 06:38:21 am
It seems that comprehension comes after something that has already 'got' the something before comprehension could take place
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 27, 2018, 06:38:43 am
Something receives before comprehension is
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 27, 2018, 06:39:00 am
Maybe only receiving happens
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 27, 2018, 09:26:50 am
Don't take my word for it. Find out yourself.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 27, 2018, 09:45:28 am
I do not live a fulfilled life although I can sense how I could - HA

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 27, 2018, 11:30:11 pm
 ::) ::) ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 29, 2018, 04:10:22 am
The child-like me says: you cannot do that, you are responsible for how others react and feel and judge, and everything. You cannot talk about what you want, you cannot do what you want, you cannot express yourself, you are not allowed to ...

YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR HOW OTHERS FEEL!

BUT HEY, COME OVER HERE, IT IS REALLY TRUE

come back here!
come back...
here!
immediately!

..................................................................................... walked off into the woods
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 29, 2018, 08:00:50 am
Excellent response to such widespread b.s.  ::) ::) ::) ::)

Enjoy your walk.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 12, 2018, 05:04:34 am
Society is build on the fact that someting IS wrong. Wrong with 'me'. I am not okay as I am but no one is. In this shitty society  :o



Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 12, 2018, 06:46:31 am
Everything is just fine, in fact, perfect in Truth, but sometimes less than optimal. How would we replace the churches, courts, jails, psycho-therapists, marriage counselors, lawyers, accountants, police... and I haven't even got to the new age wanna be gurus. Without a little downside how would you recognize the upside. It's just the way dreams work.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 12, 2018, 01:10:45 pm
Sure, it is fun I suppose to play with it
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 13, 2018, 12:04:38 am
YES! Nothing is serious. Just play with it.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 13, 2018, 02:14:13 pm
What else could I do, seems worthwile ::)

Hm,  ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 14, 2018, 05:47:54 am
Yes, great response to everything, hmm.....

Cheers.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 14, 2018, 08:38:41 am
Hm... whatever... hm... ok... if you say so... hm...
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 14, 2018, 10:07:52 am
LOVE EVOLve LOVE EVOLve ... everything is just a little on the head that I cannot begin (being) to understand.

there are really no typos...

 :o

Those who know dont speak??  ::) I don't



the definition of myself is something I impose on myself over and over again until I stop and become aware and stop imposing on myself and others

but where will that lead?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 15, 2018, 02:54:55 am
The one who wants to know where it leads is that ''I, me, my, mine'' who won't be there at the end point...i.e., where it leads.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 19, 2018, 04:24:52 am
Okay. Well, I feel as if I have to do something to prove my worth -- my relationships seem to be a mirror of that sometimes, even if I want to just enjoy them.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 19, 2018, 06:37:39 am
Just stay with that awareness.... expect nothing in return.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 04, 2018, 03:20:21 pm
I am in beautiful Kuba with lots of great nature around. I feel sick, I do not know how to get healthy and I am afraid to die. I feel as if I am not there (no brainer?).

Also, I am responsible for other's opinion of me. I feel not good enough, and want to know what I want and know that I am worthy of what is my passion or my needs.

Thanks and love you
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 05, 2018, 06:04:38 am
All you really want and are really worthy of is realizing you True Nature. Upon doing so you will drop your rather unproductive life story.... it's complete b.s.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 09, 2018, 01:12:10 am
How?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 09, 2018, 01:18:53 am
So deeply ingrained to ‘fit in’, and it feels AWFUL
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 09, 2018, 01:40:50 am
The way out is through the middle. You have no idea how awful it really feels. I know this because if you really felt it you would promptly go through it and it would disappear. Now, try and feel it, and no **** footing around. FEEL IT to get rid of it.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 09, 2018, 10:06:15 am
bla. you know it is so deep ingrained to be a victim and not own this place
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 10, 2018, 12:00:24 am
I told you what you need to do. Do it or not, up to you. But I suggest you let go of arguments for your own limitations. That makes you the perpetrator.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 20, 2018, 05:19:58 pm
Immature content removed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 20, 2018, 11:28:02 pm
A guy that falls in love with you and drops you out of the blue didn't fall in love. He fell in lust, got what he wanted and left. Boy, if someone sized you up as shy and you got upset... maybe they should have sized you up as immature. People can be good mirrors, but turkeys never reflect well.

Maybe time to up your ''people/friends selection skills''.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 20, 2018, 11:49:59 pm
Chosing better people - starting now

🙏🏻
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 21, 2018, 07:53:02 am
CRAP  :P :P :P You mean someone is listening to me... sheesh...

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 21, 2018, 10:46:41 am
If the truth slaps some sense into you - sure ! 😎
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 21, 2018, 08:34:57 pm
Cool baby....

Cheers.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 19, 2018, 09:14:23 am
Isn't it ironic that I met someone more mature, behaved like a child for a drunken stupid moment, and now he left?

H/A advice?

The worthlessness 'program' runs deep
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 19, 2018, 11:39:12 pm
I would probably have left also. Whats the big deal. Becoming and adult requires some intelligent decisions and full responsiblity for all that arises, and at fault/guilty of nothing, ever.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 20, 2018, 01:57:43 am
I would have left also

makes sense

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 20, 2018, 02:07:45 am
 :P :P :P ??? ;) ;) ;) ;) :-*
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 20, 2018, 02:24:21 am
:)

well, well, well  ::)

just adjusting myself
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 20, 2018, 04:46:22 am
No self to adjust... but do as you wish.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 20, 2018, 05:12:37 am
I do as I wish

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 20, 2018, 07:49:33 am
Cheers.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 20, 2018, 08:59:22 am
and to you
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 20, 2018, 02:59:38 pm
I have to make decisions as where to move and work and it is tiring and I do not know where to go.

Also, you said someting like 'remove the hand from the tiller'. Well, I thought I did that already  :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 20, 2018, 08:48:27 pm
Obviously you haven't...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 21, 2018, 08:54:54 am
I don't see a tiller
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on November 22, 2018, 03:47:27 am
No tiller = no problems...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 19, 2018, 01:50:14 am
There are people who pull up the past when I meet them & who want to see a fault within 'me' and cannot let me be

What am I doing with these people?  ???
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 19, 2018, 05:41:42 am
Forgive them, they know not what they do.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: andreiosypchuk on December 20, 2018, 06:08:15 pm
Dear Jed McKenna!
I don't understand yet how this Tapatalk works, but in case of you really will read this,
of course sorry for my poor English,  my name Andrew Osypchuk, I am from Kiev, Ukraine ( ex Soviet Union republic),
I have read almost all of your books,  in Russian,  thanks God someone translated them,  for free,  but I have a few more left to keep them for later as good cheese or expensive wine. And then I will reread them again in a circle most likely.
So, thank you,  thank you many times for these books,  and for everything you did.
They help to walk in the dark.
Yesterday night,  when I read ' in a dream.  Theory...' head ^ white rabbit^ I understand what's mean ^ the joy of resonances ^ that Wayne Liquorman means on his books about connections with Guru. With this letter my be I will say goodbye to my fears.


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Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 21, 2018, 01:23:32 am
Hi Andrew:

Yes, say goodbye to your fears for me. Lovely seeing what never really was to somewhere else.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: andreiosypchuk on December 28, 2018, 03:08:31 pm
Hi Jed!
Thank you very much for your answer and support. Now I feel that “ You “ are real and even somehow feel a contact with you.
Several days I talked with you in my head, few other days I read other people’s posts and I understood that all questions are the same... when am I finally getting enlightenment and full realization, where to find Jed to drink with him beer/ tea/ coca cola.., etc. and so enough a little hunt in discussions. What I d like to tell you now that so many miracles are happening, and you wrote these books, and I know that there are such crazy people in the world as you, and you ‘re not lazy and participate in discussions and answer questions.
With love, Andrew.


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Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 28, 2018, 07:47:42 pm
Hi Andrew:

Thank you for your kind words. In this forum I ask that people start their own thread and stick to that one. Now, if you find that particularly difficult, then please just keep to this one. In other words, don't write on other members threads.

Let me know if you have any problems with that. Otherwise, please share a little about you miracles.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. I wish you the best for the New Year.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 18, 2019, 08:44:56 am
Good day Jed,

I drank too much three and two days ago & called several people & do not even know what I talked about and who exactly I talked to.

I feel like what they think or how they might think I am psycho matters a lot.

I feel worthless  ???

I behaved so weirdley and so degrading in my eyes, and if others think I am weird and unworthy, or look down upon me, then they are probably right  ???

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 20, 2019, 03:26:23 am
Well... that's what tends to happen when you get faced. Now you know... and I am shrugging and thinking ''so what'. Do you really think that what others think of you is significant/meaningful/important? I suggest you get over yourself.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 20, 2019, 04:20:23 am
I don’t know. Maybe it matters, if these words I said hurt or shocked them - I don’t know what I said and all of who I called after all
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 20, 2019, 08:58:59 am
Think it matters and it will.... simple..

Cheers
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 20, 2019, 09:32:38 am
Sure... thanks!!! I am starting to realize that I do NOT want certain people in my life & despite feeling guilty at first, I feel better afterwards, if I in fact cancel them from my life

 :D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 21, 2019, 01:25:16 am
Sometimes it occurs smoothly and naturally, other times with some challenges. Inevitably you will feel better afterwards.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 21, 2019, 05:05:08 am
There is something and a bunch of thoughts that make up an identity out of memories is in that something which is really nothing but this identity cannot Know what that something/nothing is because it cannot know anything ever
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 22, 2019, 12:49:24 am
Yup, how can nothing know something? The truth is you can never know anything at all...however, paradoxically, you can realize that Truth is. Realizing is more like a deep remembering than any kind of knowing, knowing, or more accurately, thinking that you know something, involves study and memory. Realizing that Truth is requires none of these, in fact, those things only get in the way. Remember, thinking is the problem here, not the solution.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 22, 2019, 02:08:08 am
I wake up, or 'she wakes up' and thinks 'I am so depressed, I do not want to live anymore'. After the first coffee and some morning pages, she feels better. Good job, morning pages

Jim Carrey says he manifested all he wanted but of course life manifested what life wanted for Jim Carrrey

I feel that some people have more luck than others. Is that true? I am not Jim Carrey & got everything I wanted, nor am I that woman who has the awesome actor guy

Maybe I have to become the actor in my own play, and change everyting around a little bit

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 22, 2019, 02:54:01 am
You can ''maybe'' anything you want, but never forget, that's all in the dream.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 22, 2019, 03:41:47 am
If I let my body do what it feels like: breathe rightly, eat rightly, and trust who I want to meet and who I would not; I feel it takes me to the right places but I cannot know
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 22, 2019, 10:11:45 am
It is tough !!!

But I am a tough cookie

Don’t know why I wanted control , now letting it unfold, seems like fun
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 23, 2019, 01:01:03 am
The real you never wanted control, actually never wanted anything. It's only a mind that could conceive of such silliness.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 23, 2019, 01:29:17 am
The big 'universe' did something gracious (you could call it) and 'I' would not have done it or judge me for it because 'I' think that 'I' am in the right and not should forgive or have understanding but the big universe does, so I did this action, and it probably was right, who knows
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 23, 2019, 02:13:02 am
There is this sense of unfoldment & non-judgement (of events, of what happens), and non-grasping

& even some kind of knowing that it's fine

& of gratefulness

It feels generally more aware of actions, of sensory perceptions, of how things could and do effect the environment, it is weird
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 23, 2019, 03:46:59 am
It is fun. I am always here and everything unfolds, or I do not know if I can call it unfold

It is like some long lost sense is awakening which was awakened all the time & I am smiling at myself, and everyone else.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 23, 2019, 06:54:18 am
 :D :D :D ??? ::)

love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 23, 2019, 07:15:46 am
Totally off topic but a valid question when wanting H/A (I know the decision is mine to make); I make a fool of myself when drinking too much ; I do not know if one or two glasses of vine are ok and if I can keep it at that - although I know it can be relaxing - especially in nice company
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 23, 2019, 08:56:49 am
Most people make a fool of themselves when they drink too much, you have to choose whether you want to appear foolish or not. Neither is a problem, but foolish conditions lead to foolish actions... and that's when stupid crap seems to happen.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 23, 2019, 09:22:27 am
I will stick with the non-foolish and not-drinking or not-drinking-too-much. Seems lighter!

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 24, 2019, 05:56:21 am
Dear Rollercoaster 🎢,

Please be a little less rough and hand me something nice

Thank you ,
Forever yours,
Katharina
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 24, 2019, 10:23:55 am
Are you begging  ??? ??? ??? I have been on a few roller coasters and no one ever bought me a ticket and pushed me into the line.... am I being a little harsh... I certainly hope so. You are 100 per cent responsible for everything in this universe. You will notice that some day.  ::) ::) ::) :P . Till then, enjoy the ride.
Quote

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 24, 2019, 11:33:54 am
Got it! Maybe ;) The ticket I mean  :o :D :D :D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 25, 2019, 02:35:27 am
There is a feeling of being less than others (tired of that one!!!)

And then I meet certain people who remind me of love & then I know I am not less than anyone

People seem to play a game of below-above, maybe this is because of the economic world/money making

Don't say: which people? ;)  ::) :P

My unworthiness issues are related to a 'past' and to a 'future'. I am afraid that someone will think something because they identify me with a so called past = their memories = their identity, but as everything is perfect, maybe I just need to feel the feeling of total unfairness. My unworthiness is more of being treated not fairly. Sure, this is all me, but I have collected these things, & they weigh me down & keep me from experiencing the beauty of life & moving on

I HAVE THE TICKET BUT I AM NOT DARING TO GO ON THE RIDE  ::) :o --> I need to be approved by family & friends, otherwise I will just float in space
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 25, 2019, 09:33:54 am
You don't need ....s .... .... ... t.

Love ya, Jed

P.S. Wanting and needing... big diff.....
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 26, 2019, 03:13:21 am
The ride is getting weirder, smoother and more loving
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 26, 2019, 04:11:49 am
Yup... no problem in that...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 26, 2019, 12:25:22 pm
I do not know . It is like I can decide but i really cannot and all opens up miraculously and i am not even real
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 26, 2019, 10:42:16 pm
Of course, how else could it be?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 27, 2019, 02:35:53 am
It is just weird , meeting the right people at the right time , all at the right time

And things happen that make me go : what ? This is so weird but it was sure it would happen
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 28, 2019, 03:52:44 am
...and on it goes, and goes and goes.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 28, 2019, 06:17:44 am
Interesting ...
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 28, 2019, 06:52:37 am
I don’t know which city to move to but I guess life will decide for me - what does it matter ? 🎢
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on April 29, 2019, 12:20:30 am
You never move... look and see. You are right where you are and are always there. The city will come to you... and trust that the right one will come.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on April 29, 2019, 04:41:13 am
I feel there are two kinds of people - if I still have to talk of people

The one 'species' is dramatic, and according to the book by Carse, playing more finite games. For me, it is a little boring playing with them

The second 'species' is the one playing consciously or unconsciously - but probably consciously - infinite games, and they tend to let go of things very fast & just have fun without blaming others

Now, I am back and forth between the two, I feel I can hurt others who are playing finite games - I do not want to hurt them or disappoint them

Makes sense? Maybe  :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 02, 2019, 01:29:03 am
You hurt others.... I suggest you stop being so egotistical. You don't have that power. People hurt themselves when what they ''think'' should be turns out not to be. All powers for emotional hurts lie with the party experiencing said hurt.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 05, 2019, 02:45:48 am
What I do not like is people who think they know what is best for me. Yet to find a way to show them their boundaries but I got this whole 'I have to be a nice girl' thing going

and the old 'love game' where I meet someone I attach importance to and then get distracted from my own path

how do I know which authentic desire really to follow? I suppose it does not matter in the end

E.g.: if I move to a city I want to move to, I want to move there because of this life (my life) and not because someone I like lives there (which might be a nice side effect, but like Einstein said: put your energy on goals, not people)

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 05, 2019, 10:52:36 am
How will you know what an authentic desire is?? You must define it before you can know anything. What does it mean to you?

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. No B.S., no new age junk, tell me exactly what you mean.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 06, 2019, 05:24:08 am
Let go and let god sounds like an authentic desire zu me
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 06, 2019, 10:42:44 am
Got it.... now have you done it? Really DONE it?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 06, 2019, 01:16:50 pm
If I would have, I would not write here  ::)

My body is totally out of whack. Wants to sleep, cannot sleep, getting up again, not knowing what to do

It all feels so fake and sex feels okish but talking and being present and discovering and loving is so much for fulfilling than any sexual act. I would love to relate to another human being, just for the fun and play of it - I cannot believe that a 'relationship' is true anymore. And it is not. Noone can relate, I am here, forever, with or without 'you'  ;)

I want to hold onto 'I', to something, but there is nothing

Maybe from now on it is only play, create-recreate, the character, something like that

It feels like an endless thing which cannot stop and I cannot decide, it lives me

It feels a little tragic that I am the only one

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 07, 2019, 02:31:33 am
Your experiences are nothing special and are part of many, if not most folks journey... which is all good in my experiences. Adjustment, yes, some will be called for and some will occur all on their own. Just relax and breath. Do you have my Full Body Breathing tape? If not, write me at cambodianashram@gmail.com.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 08, 2019, 05:04:24 am
Relaxing and breathing and going about my business as usual  :D

I have different eating habits now, different everything habits

Waiting and seeing
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 08, 2019, 09:44:57 am
I love change and since realizing that nothing ever changes because nothing ever was, I enjoy change even more.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 09, 2019, 05:32:16 am
 :o

Change is the nature of things

but I hope it will change into something beautiful

Thank you, your breathing exercise tells me a lot about awareness. I can focus where the breath needs to go, and it works. Consciousness can be directed, I think the breath is not the only thing that can be directed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 10, 2019, 12:26:46 am
Good work, explore as much as you can.... like a kid in a toy store. Anything is possible...

 :P :P :P :P :o :o 8) 8)

and... whatever you, be cool.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 10, 2019, 08:36:25 am
I tend to find 4leave-clovers when I want

Maybe creating is more of a finding something
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 10, 2019, 09:03:47 am
Maybe finding something is more like creating.

Cheers.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 10, 2019, 10:11:38 am
If I find something I immediately create a story, yes.

Happenings happening until happening stops

Why bother
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 10, 2019, 09:08:39 pm
Yes, bothering is such a bother...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 11, 2019, 01:53:30 am
You said I should let the right city come to me. I think it did in some ways already but now I need to find a joband a place to live there. Is that also just coming? Will the city change again? Stay tuned  ::)

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 11, 2019, 09:50:13 am
Who knows... and who cares?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 12, 2019, 06:30:42 am
It is easier for 'me' to let everything flow and not attach myself to any'thing' when there is noone I 'know' around. Like when I meet someone new and exchange ideas with them e.g. That is so much fun!

People who are related to me are just fiction, and change every second, every moment is the same, the only thing that difffers is that I give it meaning, this openness is always there - new people or 'old', it does not matter!!! and what blocks the flow is only the attachment to memories and misery  :o
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 13, 2019, 05:17:34 am
Memories=miseries=giant human bungee cords. Hey, I never said I was a poet.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 14, 2019, 01:53:27 am
If I see people who have a really big ego & drama aura, I feel so pushed away from them --  ::)

I feel guilty though if they are part of my extended family - I 'should' love them all

This drama aura, and their  need to feel superior, it really turns me off. Not in the least healthy for me

I do not even want to give them this much energy, this is draining

Guilt is a great thing. It gets handed to us from society, so that we accept the being controlled by dramatic people, even in groups. What a graceless thing to have
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 14, 2019, 03:07:01 am
I understand 110 per cent. You might enjoy my latest rant. An out take from a discussion with a visiting student.

Never forget, you can always just excuse yourself politely and leave... and perhaps never return.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. Oops, you already did that.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 14, 2019, 04:11:12 am
I am amazed! :) :)

For me, it is sometimes still that I worry or bother about things, but I have experiences these days where I really just do not care. It fades away... Let me tell you a story if you 'care' :) ---> I remember times where I just did  not worry about anything, and this was for example when I was visiting a friend in Norway. He does not hold onto a lot and Norwegian people in general seem to be pretty relaxed. I could not even worry about anything. This is my reference point, at least for now. I make this story matter for now...

I also have to think about that I sometimes do not care who comes into my life, or comes back into my life, but if they would, I would of course care about them - like you said, a very different way of caring - or relating

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 14, 2019, 07:33:55 am
One can care without caring in an outcome... sort of like a big crystal. Light goes through it with little resistance... and sometimes a rainbow exits. The crystal doesn't care.

Any worry or concern is just a habit of the body. Nothing to do with you.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 16, 2019, 04:12:43 am
I am not allowed to feel beautiful as long as I do not get the proof of being beautiful

Not allowed to be independent as long as I do not get the proof of being allowed to do what I want

I am not allowed to express myself as long as I can offend someone

What a prison am I in  ???

 ;)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 16, 2019, 04:38:30 am
Sounds like you have made you world and existent dependent upon everyone but you. Bit silly don't ya think?

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 16, 2019, 05:30:23 am
Horrendously stupid

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 16, 2019, 06:09:07 am
Opening my eyes to this just opens up Pandora's box.

I mean: what is going on?

So much B(elief)S(ystems) everywhere

Play?!  8) Play and let it unfold and be entertained by all

 8) 8) 8) these patterns of behaviour of people even... interesting and so weird, do they even know about these? I even seem to know which energy to tune into to get certain results, maybe I will try this for a while, as long as I am here  ::) ::) :-* :P :P (no I am not)


Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 16, 2019, 08:50:36 am
Got it, maybe... a little confused... nothing new.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 16, 2019, 09:18:20 am
 ::) :-*
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 17, 2019, 12:07:50 am
Back at yah....

Cheers.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 18, 2019, 06:55:26 am
Weird, I am the alpha and omega, maybe

Just found something out about manifestation and I do not want to share it because.. it’s nice to manifest but love is more or life is more. It is ok ... just fine
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 18, 2019, 07:01:03 am
Thanks fo sharing that.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 18, 2019, 07:16:49 pm
Be careful what you wish for or rather : be careful of why you wish for what you wish for

I see what I wish for, and how it manifests, and then I am just curious in which direction  it will flow

I do not wish and get things

I see how it unfolds and how it can unfold

And how I want to pretend that I know

Instead of just guessing

And watching
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 18, 2019, 10:46:39 pm

Got it, thanks for sharing.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 19, 2019, 08:41:02 am
I define myself because of men who do not appreciate me but I somehow think they are key to me loving  me

I have too much heartache and I am not motivated to go on living
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 20, 2019, 12:06:38 am
.... yet you are motivated enough to read men's minds...  :P :P :P

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 20, 2019, 01:13:58 am
Not really. I don’t care .
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 20, 2019, 01:16:49 am
I find define oneself on what others think of you a little silly. Gave that up decades ago. What others think of you is none of your business.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 20, 2019, 04:04:03 am
Wow 😯

Something happened and nothing

The biggest one for me is really ‘I am not worthy’ But I just saw I am .

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 20, 2019, 08:34:59 am
Just concepts, stick with it.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 22, 2019, 04:38:07 am
I cannot bear the overwhelm of feelings I have

It feels like I am abandoned and left alone in darkness & I have no idea what to do from here, although things happen and things are done by me, it feels like death

When people leave me who I thought could love me, I feel as if there is no love anymore, like I am wrong for everyone, I do not behave in the right way, I am to blame for them leaving me

and I am afraid they will never come back
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 22, 2019, 07:56:41 am
... well, you have some work to do on that. The reality is you are totally alone cause there is only ONE, and it's very dark as it appears to human dreamt beings.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 22, 2019, 08:59:32 am
Well if that is the case, I guess I am always good
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 22, 2019, 09:41:04 pm
You are the whole enchilada, all good and all bad, and you are neither because they are just made up. What is seen as bad in one case, (murder) is considered good in another (a war hero who kills a dozen opponents). The trick is to realize is all made up... is BEE ESS.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 23, 2019, 07:04:29 am
I am nothing really

Would not make sense otherwise

This whole whatever thing it is

and on it goes, .......
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 24, 2019, 11:29:35 am
Lots of old emotions coming up. ‚Something is wrong with me‘ it says instead of relaxing and trusting all is well

Do not want to leave yet but where would anything ever go?

I am alone in another country to show myself I always am alone
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 25, 2019, 10:00:04 am
Got it, so what's the big deal???

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 30, 2019, 11:06:25 am
I had a beautiful encounter with a man who wants to see me again partly but feels guilty and thus probably won’t because he has a girlfriend. Also I behaved like a drama queen which might have pushed him away. Is this real ? I mean , it all feels like a real bad movie

Can I influence the dream or only watch it ?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 30, 2019, 11:00:51 pm
I suggest you step out of the dream and create something a little less dramatic.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on May 31, 2019, 05:10:47 am
Then I would need to see that it is only a dream ...

I am afraid I will never see this man again - probably I do not have any say in this
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on May 31, 2019, 09:47:43 am
Sheesh... sounds like a waste of energy to me. There are other men out there... have a look, they seem to be all around.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 02, 2019, 03:07:38 pm
I feel guilty of having hurt certain people and that certain people therefore do not like me anymore - I guess all is for the best
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on June 02, 2019, 11:21:13 pm
It none of our business what certain people like or don't like. That is their problem.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 07, 2019, 06:30:49 am
I know that my life is somehow going in the right direction - and what would a wrong direction even look like  ::)

Now I have to manifest certain material things & my feeling of being less beautiful/popular/you name it than other concepts of others, stands in my way, although these are only words. As if I am also afraid of having more attention drawn towards me by really doing and letting in what I want

Who am I to have money, the right partner etc.?

generally, the flow is not there
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on June 07, 2019, 07:42:23 am
Simple, vanish the identities of ''I am unworthy'' and that will cover all the avenues you presented.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 08, 2019, 01:35:13 am
I can not even see all of my life, and what I can do, and how amazing and creative everything can be because there is this 'what would they think if I did this...'. and this whole 'I should be liked by others', it makes me very very angry, and it comes only from me, because this is the only place I am
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on June 08, 2019, 02:58:59 am
Thanks for encouraging me, I have been contemplating another KK contemplation that will assist but sometimes I need a kick in the backside.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 08, 2019, 08:53:34 am
I do not know what you are talking about but you are welcome :D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 20, 2019, 09:04:47 am
I introduced a lot of alcohol into my life the last weeks & ended up with abusive people, abusive situations in any form, and a lot of drama & now need to get rid of the attached feeling of 'I am unworthy because I was abused, insulted etc...'. Not drinking helps surely in getting back on track, as does Yoga & breathing & nature

What else do you recommend? I am afraid  ???
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on June 21, 2019, 11:31:13 pm
Don't pay any attention to my recommendations, create your own and then listen like your life depended upon it being followed.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on June 24, 2019, 09:50:26 am
 8)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 08, 2019, 09:29:04 am
Now, I got a job which is way beyond what I imagined it to be & I am afraid I cannot do it

Plus, I am exhausted by wanting to be liked by others or fulfilling expectations, so that they do not get hurt  :P Generally, I do not want people in my life who are not healthy for me

My body is not healthy. Although I quit alcohol, I feel tired & close to death & like under a cloud

And I wish to have a partner who can give me some (imagined) stability

Partly, I manifested what I wanted, or let it happen but the other part is stuck in wanting to be accepted and not wanting to hurt someone

BK: take care of your own business... If I would just know what that is at this point!!!



Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on July 08, 2019, 10:33:31 am
Accept yourself and to you know what with people who don't accept you. Quite being a doormat.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ow0lr63y4Mw

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on July 08, 2019, 01:59:21 pm
This video had to happen... I knew it! And my name is Katherine ;) thanks!!!  ::) :P ??? 8) 8) 8)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 07, 2019, 01:28:07 am
I started a new job and I learn how to not take what others think seriously, when they have opinions of 'me'. I see it more as a play now and try to expand my role - not to fit their opinions but what I want to be. It is a dance and on the body pretty tough

I want to give up and not work there anymore because I will not have a lot of free time and the being judged is such a huge thing for me to deal with, on the other hand I want to push through because it is a play and because it is a learning game and because I have to learn other's opinions are only theirs... and because the money is good  ;D

I feel like if I see it more as a play all of my life is more of a play now, and I appreciate the free time I have and do not give into stupid compromises

There is so much to learn and experience and expand into

I do not have the time to ask myself if I am in the right town, I just let everything come to me and not worry... I am enough after all

TIme to see that
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 07, 2019, 05:04:37 am
It's challenging, pays well and you are learning... sound darn good... at least for a while. But, always be prepared to pick up and move at any time.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 07, 2019, 12:47:25 pm
I am preparing to leave anytime, it is easier on myself to live that way  :D

Who knows  ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 07, 2019, 10:07:02 pm
I totally understand that...

Love ya, Jed.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 28, 2019, 12:37:55 pm
I have a job which is unhealthy, not fulfilling, too much plastic in the products, no enriching coworkers. Need the money though  :P

There are people who behave like I am a doormat towards me, and I do not know how to handle them. How? ANGRY  >:( >:( >:( I feel I need to put on more boundaries towards these people

Also, body is sick, no wonder...  :P

This is not fulfilling


Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 29, 2019, 08:09:53 am
Are you sure you don't need drama and more than you need the money. Oh wait, sounds like you have both.

Now, pick your sorry butt up off the chair and dance with me.....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dWwEi4SNf1M&list=RDKEasxe8hDs4&index=48

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. Have a little faith... all is sitting there waiting for you to let go and let that door open.

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on August 30, 2019, 12:35:35 am
 :-X
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on August 30, 2019, 12:27:10 pm
Humor me with specifics.. or not...

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 01, 2019, 01:36:00 am
I have enough money, for once in my life, feels absolutely weird  :o :-*

My health is getting there

So all in all, this all seems pretty perfect at this point.

My relationships are harmonious and peaceful.

Is there a problem  ??? ::)

-----

I feel that I cannot really do what I want as I do not have enough free time, or express myself, not all of the time anyway
I tend to want to date people out of my reach; and sometimes they come into reach but usually they are in relationships already; why do I want to date at all?
When people treat me as what I perceive as inferior, I tend to think that I cannot do or have what I want.

 ??? ::) :P :-*
love love love!
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 01, 2019, 04:36:37 am
All just human dream.. b.s., so what? Sounds to me you are doing just fine. Never forget that emotions lie, but ONLY always.

Shut up, sit down and thank whoever is in charge of this dream, be grateful big time. Seriously. You can always come back to the party later.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 01, 2019, 04:44:09 am
Oh I am. I am somewhat in touch with two people I wanted in my life, no matter what comes out of it, how did that happen?

also, everything flows, and it feels so yummy to interact with others  :D :-*
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 01, 2019, 10:02:22 pm
Sounds fine to me....

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 02, 2019, 04:36:47 am
If I want to manifest anything, do I just wait to let it happen and not oppose it, or do I just never know what will happen? Or is this all a paradox, and both things at the same time ━━☆⌒*
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 02, 2019, 08:18:30 am
Well, that's not the way I did it, but you know the test, whatever works for you.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 02, 2019, 08:35:42 am
Testing it  8)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 02, 2019, 10:44:12 am
Yes, yes, test, test and then test some more... oh, and through out the b.s. in the process.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 03, 2019, 12:08:27 am
 :o ;) :D ;D ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 04, 2019, 12:10:50 pm
You say wishes work 1 percent of the time but you say if a wish is authentic it usually happens

Paradoxed much?  :P
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 05, 2019, 01:13:20 am
Yes, and no. Wishes are almost all just passing thoughts... seldom are they really focused on. Most humans had the attention span of a gnat. Just the way it is, however, regarding your assertion that it's a paradox. Of course it's a paradox. In my world it's only paradoxes that can embrace the reality of T/R and my appearance in the human dream at the same time. Folks want things to make sense, to be reasonable, they can't take conundrums, oddities and paradoxes because folks want to feel that they understand things. Understanding is the booby prize. It's the point at which one says, ''O.K. got that, what's next'' when the reality is they have only reasoned something out and the brain is free to go back to sleep. thinking is the problem, not the solution.

If you can't grasp such simple things as black does not exist without white, nothings is every totally black or totally white. Each contains some degree of the other as Alan Watts so lucidly explains, then you won't get far in this journey. And just to add to that, there is nowhere to go and nothing to do, ever. There really is no journey, but words are just about all we have in an effort to explain the explainable. Things move and get done, that's true, but it has nothing to do with you.

Once you realize your True Nature, you will understand that there is nothing to do because, all has occurred, already. You will also realize that nothing every happened. If you want paradox, then that's a pretty good start.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. In addition, you will hopefully realize that talking about such things can be pleasantly dangerous.



Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 05, 2019, 07:26:34 am
🙌🏻🍂🎊😄

Ok ... well, then for sth to come true I probably have to focus long enough on it

Playing 🧚‍♀️

Paradoxes 🙌🏻
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 08, 2019, 04:04:37 am
I find that the most beautiful thing could be to not do anything at all.

But have I ever or did I just think about doing things, and then I thought I did things?

Nothing really happens, just a creation of a self image

play play play

words words words

Why don't I enjoy life?
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 08, 2019, 05:08:24 am
NO! ''Why'' is a stupid question. It doesn't lead to high quality information. Ask ''HOW?''. That might tell you how you create unhappiness... with that knowledge, you might create something else. Never know....

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on September 08, 2019, 08:37:48 am
Wow!!! Thank you  :D

This helps very much :)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 09, 2019, 03:45:39 am
Stick with it, start using ''how'' in the context of ''how did (you, I or they) do that? What steps did you take, what beliefs were you holding around that subject?'''. Exercise the ''how'' muscle.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Trey on September 09, 2019, 09:43:22 am
<3<3<3 thank You
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on September 10, 2019, 12:05:36 am
Hi Trey:

I think you are here... I ask that you start your own thread and stick to that thread. I will do what I can to assist, but I do have a few rules here.

So, your own thread, 200 words or less, and not cross-commenting... i.e., commenting or making suggestions to another member.

Thanks in advance.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 03, 2019, 01:37:03 am
I met someone in my home town, very much connection & energy & attraction. It felt real and meant to be.

Now, I pushed him away because he started to behave weirdly and with more distance, and with less love & I interpreted a lot & behaved towards him dramatically and unlovingly. Is this for the better? It seems he sits in my cells and I have to let go of him. I have let go already of a lot of pain regarding him but there is still this hope within me that he will change his mind. I cut contact with him but I miss him. The worst things is that I pushed him away although he said he had so many feelings. How come he does not want to invest anymore?

I know that he had feelings, although they might have come from the strong attraction. I know that I had feelings. It feels like a loss when just having gained.

I am only writing here to get some hope  ::) ::) ::)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 03, 2019, 02:45:15 am
Wow... that sure sounds like a load of crap... to me... but hey, I'm very different. I don't tolerate relationships that bring me grief. How old are you? What are you getting out of this silliness? I know I am sounding like an A-hole, but that's what you need... IMHO. You are treating yourself like dirt, but that's not fully true, I know gardeners who treat their dirt better.

Time to grow up. Time to let go of childish hopes, dreams and wasting of your time in your human experience. There are something like seven billion people in this current world. Do you think you could pick someone a little more thoughtful and less neurotic? You intentionally pickes this guy and now you are getting the lesson your ''soul'' was seeking (quotes mean just an expression, not to be taken literally). It's a simple equation, learn or repeat, learn or repeat, learn or repeat.....

What is that lesson you seek? Please don't tell me if feels so real and special or any of that )_)(&&_*&(*&)(*&. Emotions lie, but only always. Real love has nothing to do with emotions. Emotions are blurry reflections of reality and Truth. I strongly suggest you learn the differences between emotions and reality. Love is great, but you have no idea what it really is.


Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 03, 2019, 07:54:08 am
Too old for these childish promises and early love-declarations

I picked him for superficial reasons. I liked being adored by someone I found as attractive

I liked the excitement of it. He was a good actor, or maybe he was not even acting but searching for me to heal his childhood wounds. But from the beginning I felt he could drop me. He was so distracted and confused himself, that it seemed I should just fulfill some role for him which then did not fit into his picture anymore.

The lesson I was seeking was that my life is in my hands, that I deserve a better environment, that a relationship is not only sex
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 04, 2019, 12:21:53 am
... good lesson....

Enjoy and listen to it.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 15, 2019, 02:06:57 pm
How can I not Be in the grip of shame and fear, and forgive myself for unconscious behavior and self destruction? How can I not judge myself when others could ? Do i have to share all weird behavior with them in order for them (who is them even) to judge me now or wait until they will find out which they never might ? Little paranoid these days
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 16, 2019, 12:32:23 am
Is Mary Jane a part of your para...  ??? ??? ??? :P :P

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 16, 2019, 01:53:34 am
No but another bad substance was for some weeks and now I have to heal this

I do not feel well in this body or life - I need to Organise very much and job is on hold, Depression got me in a hole and it seems to be hard to get out of it - guilt and shame and not knowing what I want anymore
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 16, 2019, 03:33:24 am
I like the term, ''altering consciousness'' which perhaps should be labelled, ''altering the focus of consciousness''. This is what most mind-altering substances do. But to think that such drugs are any more than a brief look at what is really going on is missing the point. Limited use of the right ones with the right intention, set and setting are often quite valuable and productive. Abusing them in any way is not ''limited'' use and will the user will end up in place he/she really don't want to be.

What is an appropriate ''drug'', amount of use, set and setting... all up to you. Do you research and try to avoid the ''party'' labelled products.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 16, 2019, 03:55:55 am
I know they do but now I turn away from it. The thing is that I need and want to heal what disruptions they created in my body and life. And I do not know where to start and how to - deep sense of guilt and non-alignment
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 16, 2019, 06:43:10 am
Take one and make it as big and nasty as you possibly can... simple but not always easy.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 16, 2019, 01:42:20 pm
The biggest is I have to be liked and I have done wrong and i have destroyed and I am to blame
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 16, 2019, 10:44:13 pm
That's four, not one. Pick one... you favorite, and just enjoy it. Trust me, it cannot stand long under intense focus and attention. Maya will often distract and overwhelm you with all of this, too many of that, everything is this, blah, blah. Pick one and one only... at a time. This is a skill that anyone can develop.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on October 22, 2019, 01:10:05 am
Well... the most important thing in letting energy go is having a healthy body beforehand. At least for me. Then, it is easy.

Toxicity in a huge amount just makes the energy stuck and rigid

On the other side of pain is laughter
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on October 22, 2019, 06:37:13 am
If that's what works for you, then go for it full on.

Remember, that's just a believe.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on November 30, 2019, 05:46:33 am
I have a depressive phase and do not know but somehow know how to get out of it.

A lot of it revolves around how others might judge past behaviour of mine, and how they have a negative image of me and I internatlize it

Thus, I do not know how to move on or if I at all deserve to move on and live a healthy life
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 01, 2019, 01:48:01 am
Hi there:

Funny link up between your post and something a student here came across and sent me thing a.m.

''I'VE FINALLY STOPPED CARING WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ... I HOPE EVERYONE'S O.K. WITIH THAT....

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 01, 2019, 05:30:08 am
 :o

Well, people who are too busy thinking about me probably are not busy enough taking care of themselves
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 01, 2019, 08:30:46 am
A little secret... no one is busy thinking about you... period. ??? ??? ???
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 01, 2019, 09:39:26 am
... but they can judge me for mistakes and inadequacy

I feel inadequate
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 02, 2019, 12:55:47 am
How do you know they judge you  ??? ??? ??? I am deadly serious, tell me how on earth you know they are judging you. ??? ??? ??? ??? Take it even further, how to you know they give a rat's-ass about you  ::) :P :P :P Please, please, please don't give me any garbage about how they ''look'' at you, or something about what they ''say''... please, not that trash. You know enough by now to realize they don't have a clue about themselves, let alone ''you''.  :o :o :o :o

You are living in the stories you have made up about some ''out there'' and there is no ''out there'' so you just go on making crappy stories and crappy stories are pretty crappy entertainment. What on earth has you doing that.  >:( >:( >:( >:( I'm sure you are smarter than that.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on December 03, 2019, 03:34:29 pm
I know there is only this and my experience. When I think about things others might judge me for I secretly want their approval/acceptance/understanding. Only if o get their approval which might come or not, I am free to do what I want. So I don’t allow myself to do what I want because others nicht deem me unworthy at some point in the future. Driving with A ton of breaks on

💭🛷
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on December 04, 2019, 01:05:54 am
Brakes on and only viewing life through the rear-view mirror.

Hmmm....... :-\ :-\ :-\

Love ya, Jed.


Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 22, 2020, 12:57:34 pm
Where's the magic? In the so called past I had glimpses of creating what I want but maybe I had more patience or maybe what I have in front of me now is not less special than having a beautiful man kissing me

How can I create what I want again, like attracts like? I know this is not real and everyone will die, naturally, sure.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 23, 2020, 03:23:59 am
Thanks for sharing, and what comes to me is this... I will tell you where the magic is... right in front of you and NOW, only now. What on earth are you doing trying to re-create a past, (which I have serious reservations ever existed).

It's like driving your car forward while using the rear-view mirror to guide you. It's beyond silly. Get with the NOW! You will waste less energy and live considerably longer (maybe, but it's a good promise).

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 23, 2020, 04:49:56 am
One feels like expansion, the other one like contraction
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 23, 2020, 06:17:19 am
Neither of those are real, but you know which one I would go with.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on January 23, 2020, 07:41:16 am
words words words worms
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on January 23, 2020, 11:13:46 am
Can't find a happy worm emogee.

Cheers.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 09, 2020, 11:14:58 am
I live with a girl who might have ignored me on the street a few weeks back. I asked her and she said it was not her. So, I might have either hallucinated or she lies to me. Now I feel unfree in my flat because if she is a liar, this is so not how I want to be treated.

I feel like I have to prove myself to my flatmates. I feel like I have to pretend I am less worthy than they are.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 09, 2020, 11:45:01 pm
Dear G:

There is something that you have yet to get, and that is that EVERYBODY lies. Words are lies, automatically, and the whole concept of there being a real person and personality are deep lies. One of the biggest lies is when people say they love you... very, very few people have any idea if 'love' even exists and if so, what it means. Every word means something different to every person. One word can have thousands of meanings and implications... and by believing words, humans maintain their illusion of sanity... and it is a very thin illusion. Just wait a few more months and you will see how thin it is. In your immediate case, you are putting undue weight in the words of someone you don't even know.

Don't trust what anyone says, find out YOUR truth, your reality, what's important to you... and for those who say, 'O.K. Jed, are you lying?''. Of course I am! Every word spoken by every person ever living was a lie. Of course most are unintentional and often well meaning, but it goes a little deaper and is more complex.... it has a twist within it. Please read on....

One person says, ''Blah, blah, blah,'' and, in the lack of another human being present, it's just noise. For example, if I walk up  to a tree and say, ''You  are a cow.'' the tree doesn't interpret it as anything because I don't speak ''Tree''. Now, if I go up to a human and say, ''You are a cow.'' they would say or think you were lying. You see, it takes another person (receptor) to make it a lie and thus make you a liar.

If I were to go up to a person who had experience geniune T/R and said, ''You are a cow'' they would, most likely, stop for a second and say something like, ''Well, of course I am, glad you see that''. When you get that you are everything, then you get that you are everything.

A Buddhist monk goes into a pizza shop and the attendant says, ''Good day, what would you like?". The monks says, ''Make me one with everything''.

Back to my orginal thesis.... on your journey you will only encounter lies, however, that is very specific to the humand dream. BUT, upon realizing your True Nature, you will realize that it is impossible for anyone to lie because there is no one to lie to. Without two or morer parties a lie is impossible.

Should someone appear to lie to you or hurt your feelings, that is a wondrous blessing. They are helping you see you illusions. Welcome it, embrace it, and find out who is experiencing it. Everyone and everything can be your guru if you have the right attitude.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. It turns out the monk didn't like anchovies, but he got what he asked for.









Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 10, 2020, 02:02:41 am
I do not know how to embrace it other than letting it be and focussing on me
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 10, 2020, 07:22:27 am
Sounds perfect to me.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 12, 2020, 10:10:45 am
Dear Jedthya of Delphi,

how do I go about getting the right job, the right people, the right partner, the right circumstances, health, great travel experiences and fun creative endeavours?

thank you in advance
 :D
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 12, 2020, 08:53:49 pm
What makes you think you don't already have those... oh yeh... thinking.

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 15, 2020, 04:35:32 am
The right people, yes. The right environment, yes. No job. No partner. The job thing is the bigger wish though.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 16, 2020, 01:19:01 am
Thanks for sharing...

Cheers.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on February 25, 2020, 01:56:32 pm
I think I have enough money, I have the right people

I do not really need a lover  :o

I am somehow going in the right direction  :P

sometimes feels like something is guiding me to the right direction but I am stubborn and get hit by the wrong direction

The funny thing is as soon as I go into the right direction, the doors open up, at least feels like it; then I get what I wanted in another way, but in a better way  :D Just taught myself something here  8)
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on February 25, 2020, 11:46:53 pm
That's my end goal, to have you teach you...  Excellent!

Love ya, Jed
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 27, 2020, 09:05:06 am
I try to avoid the fact that I would rather live alone than with immature people who leave me notes with not being loud but do not say it directly

other than that still going to work usually, but less, running, keeping everything clean, so same as always.

But no way to escape living with people who I do not want to live with

Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 28, 2020, 02:35:34 am
I ain't buying that. You can walk right out the door and never look back, but you fear losing something and that is the trap. You can never lose something when you know you are everything. When you don't know that, everything is up for grabs, by someone else. Rather strange world don't you think...  better yet, don't think.

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 28, 2020, 03:56:23 pm
Yes, I feel like I lose something; I feel like that almost all the time. Especially these days , since this tension is in the air

I feel like I lose friends, lose appreciation, Lose that Others think I am honest or good hearted or trustworthy

Afraid to die soon although I am young

Afraid To not live the dreams I still want to live,

This is a whole Lotta fear
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 28, 2020, 11:41:57 pm
Got it, and a whole lot of courage in just admitting that. Many are in pain, but few face it.

Much love, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 29, 2020, 04:33:54 am
I do face it and I have to face my life if I want to 'not let it be clubbed into dank submission'
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 29, 2020, 06:15:42 am
Tell me the flip-side, what would be the opposite of being clubbed into 'dank submission'. Hey, sounds a little kindy when I write it out ... hmm.. would you be the clubee or the clubor? I must know right now!

Love ya, Jed.
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 29, 2020, 07:18:14 am
Both.

The flipside is peace
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: getitgotit on March 30, 2020, 12:04:22 pm
I feel as I've always felt. If i take care of my body, I feel stable in myself. If I do not, I do not. Therefor, I am not substance to outside circumstances. Although scary, I am just this whatever thing here, breathing, sitting i don't know
Title: Re: Enough of drama
Post by: Jed McKenna on March 31, 2020, 01:52:55 am
Responsible for everything and guilty of nothing...   ;) ;) ;)

Love ya and stay healthy.

Jed.