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General Discussion / Re: Maya
« Last post by Alice on August 17, 2017, 04:23:28 pm »
When I wrote SA came fear.
A fear to loose my sense of myself like someone who can make a distinction, a fear to loose any wishes and directions, goals, a opportunity to seek something. A fear to loose a sense of myself like an individual being, not special - but to become impersonal nothing. Just nothing.
I wrote a litttle similar before about a fear to loose ''another people''. But this idea of turning into nothing causes the desire to escape as quickly as possible.
Are really important tendencies and interests that was before TR still stay, continue after TR? Can there be genuine tendency before TR other than TR by itself?
General Discussion / Re: Back again
« Last post by Floris on August 17, 2017, 02:31:30 pm »
Okay here is something. It's a bit of a mess to read, sorry.

Restlessness or seeking satisfaction seem to be energetic things, maybe combinations of belief + unresolved sensations. Lately I'm tired -and there can be some frustration- about inquiring done with thinking/pondering, and then rather don't go down that route, it's tiring. If not inquiring thinkingwise restlessness or seeking satisfaction away the inquiring is done differently, and it happens as just being aware of what is happening. So then there is just the walking around the room, and restlessness or seeking satisfaction may come up and these are just the being aware of, this type of inquiring can go on for an hour and it usually ends up laying on the floor, being aware of discomfort and the seeking satisfactoriness dynamic.

This seems to be able to get things like restlessness resolved. But on the other hand within something like restlessness seem to be beliefs which might need thinking to be seen through? But there is a sense of frustration which can come up when thinking, my thinking can be much twingled up with doubt/uncertainty, through which I don't favor thinking. Do things need to be seen through with (the help of) thinking, or can you just fall/surrender within 'it' (whatever that 'it' is at that point)? Not sure if the lather one actually resolves anything, or just gets some tensions away which will come back later.
Jed Rants / Re: Jed Rand: Music
« Last post by Michael T on August 17, 2017, 12:22:24 pm »
This one comes close for me
General Discussion / Re: Who am I ?
« Last post by Jed McKenna on August 17, 2017, 09:54:54 am »
General Discussion / Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Last post by Jed McKenna on August 17, 2017, 09:53:32 am »
Yes, it certainly is...

Love ya, Jed
General Discussion / Re: Back again
« Last post by Jed McKenna on August 17, 2017, 09:52:37 am »
Very sufficient, now do it with all your (illusory) heart.

Love ya, Jed.
General Discussion / Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Last post by DrDaring on August 17, 2017, 09:50:06 am »
Thanks, Jed.  I appreciate your succinct style.

Nothing more to 'do' while the spiral continues other than wait?

Huh . . I think I just answered my own question.  There really isn't anything to 'do'.  Its all just being done.

What a remarkable feeling.

General Discussion / Re: Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Last post by Jed McKenna on August 17, 2017, 09:46:39 am »
Dear Last Flush of the Toilet Bowl:

Welcome to the forum.. as for you question, wait and see.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. Good work.
General Discussion / Well now I'm just running out of words . . .
« Last post by DrDaring on August 17, 2017, 09:22:58 am »
New to the forum, but been searching for years now.

I've been using the Neti Neti process, and after seeing Jed's idea about writing that process down, I'm now achorless - which I guess is a good thing.

I've run out of things to look into.  Everything is just . . (I dislike the word nothing its not descriptive to me) . . . not important.  Absolutely everything, every thought, feeling, perception.  Its all to be discarded.  'I' can't even find myself anymore, there's no one doing the looking and nowhere to look.  The mind spirals.  Which is good.

So now there is just sitting, watching the illusionary dream go by, watching the mind flush down the toilet in spirals.  For some reason, I enjoy watching it spiral down.

I wonder what it will feel like when the gut belief of 'I' finally gives up the ghost.
General Discussion / Re: Back again
« Last post by Floris on August 17, 2017, 09:06:24 am »
Thanks Jed, yes everything is good here. don't see why I would write you privately so here is fine. It's hard for me to write anything, because half way it would be seen as bafflegab. In the realm of figuring things out, this approach doesn't solve anything, so I'm just going to write something anyway.

The sense that there is something to ask or figure out comes from this tension hijacked by the mind, which gives a sense that something needs to be solved or figured out. When looking into it, it's clear that there is no need or desire (because they don't exist) to solve anything, and nothing to solve. My practice or inquiry form of lately is just to focus on this dynamic, and go with what comes up, which usually doesn't involve thinking, it's more like holding a focus on this 'something needs to be solved dynamic', feels more like uprooting sensations and beliefs. It's clear that when doing this for longer, deeper shifts would happen. But not sure how far this approach goes, and if it's efficient? It feels kind of good to do though, although that's not so important.

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