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Jed McKenna

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Jed Rant: Another ACIM student... sniveler... again.
« on: July 12, 2019, 02:30:16 am »
ACIM Student email. Posted with permission. I agree to remove any identifiers, but I will sneak a little share in. This guy/girl is a very accomplished professional in his/her field and experiences more ''extreme'' things in a day than most folks do in a year. He/she is grounded and intelligent. A little proof that this stuff works when you work it... fully. I thank him/her for letting me share it:

Surprise! Surprise! I continued to do the exercise on unworthiness over the past 2 days, and as I had told you, nothing more came up. I sat this morning & an avalanche of unworthiness came up out of nowhere. It was seismic, powerful, and much more profound than before. The previous exercises had to do with being unworthy because of "this or that." This exercise started that way but got deeper and deeper until it reached my very core that was unworthy. The unworthiness had nothing to do with who I am, was or what I did or didn't do, it was at my very core and everything else was a manifestation of this core of unworthiness. I had a sense that it was so deep that it originated with my manifesting as a human being, as if this was, if you will, "the original sin." All the unworthiness was for no other reason than I showed up as a manifest entity/ dream character. Boy I cried a river! I ran out of tissues and had to use my T-shirt. What a mess!

I had such a clear sense of the depth of this unworthiness but very soon after seeing that it was at my very core, it dissipated. I really wanted to explore it but it wasn't strong enough to follow it at that depth. What I felt was that I am inherently unworthy by dint of being born, there was nothing I did to become unworthy; and more so, there was nothing to do about it. It was just there.

Well it shows to go you that one's capacity for self-delusion is limitless. I am also understanding how such deep feelings of unworthiness could certainly get in the way of one's ability to manifest intentionally because the very intentions are clouded/misdirected by that unworthiness.

The good news is that I no longer give a ****. I've been consciously suffering (meaning with a goal to wake up, transform, transcend) for 15 years now. It just doesn't matter anymore. Bring it on!

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