Hi Jedi,
Had a pretty powerful experience just now with collapsing time & space and vanishing identities.
Some events have been popping to my mind lately (related to what I told you earlier, past creeping up etc.) so I decided to do collapsing with those events. Did it just now and felt relieved afterwards. Love. Easiness.
Actually earlier today I realized how
**** angry I am that this
**** doesn't let me LIVE because she wants to live and whine all the time... and in order for her to live she has to bring up the
**** past in the now all the time. So I said
**** you, you're not even real so it's time for YOU to go. We don't need you. (I sound like a gollum now but whatever....hmm maybe she's the gollum!)
Anyway.
That's what led me to do the collapsing and also vanishing with the identity which came up to be worthless/worthy. As soon as I whispered myself, I am worthy no matter what ever happened/didn't happened etc. I burst into tears. F**k. That hurt. I realized I've never actually said that to myself. Or thought about it. That I am worthy and it has nothing to do with.."me".
Mmm. That's it for now.
Love ya,
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