INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

Dear E:

Thank you for your post and welcome to the forum. You journey, so far, doesn't sound that unique to me... but for you, I am sure it has many unique qualities.

Write me anytime.

Love ya and stay healthy,

Jed.

Dreaming a way out? I’m still dreaming of a way out...

Supposing it’s all a trick of the mind?

What do we know for sure?
Really nothing.
For instance, did history really happen?
We have never found any real relics from the past. All that we’ve found are the relics and bones that exist in our minds, from signals interpreted by our brain.
We don’t even know if its our mind? Even our brains that supposedly are interpreting and visualizing the data are a figment of our imagination. No one, including me has ever seen my or any brain directly. Always its through an interpreter. Maybe nothing exists outside of our imagination.
And where does this imagination come from? Whose is its?
What am I really?


What is true?
I am here now is true.
How do I know?
Because I can’t be anywhere else. There is only now.
Only now is true.
If there is only now, then there is nothing else but now.
Therefore only now is real.
If now is the only reality, nothing else exists.
Which means I cannot be anything other than now.
Isn’t that a belief?
Only until it is indisputably verified by direct experience.

The penny has not dropped yet.
Would appreciate any pointers...

Dream on..

Dear Jed,

I am at the awareness stage. I see that anything sensed is just an appearance in the awareness. I don't get a sense of awareness, and how can I? Isn't anything sensed just an object of awareness and not awareness itself? I am in awareness when I am not limited by any object, but that realization only occurs when I am out of the state. How do I go beyond awareness? I've been searching and haven't found the way.

Dream in

My body is always aware of now.
My thoughts are not.
How do I know this?
Because I can safely drive home from work, engrossed in thoughts without any mental awareness of driving.
I.e I can arrive home and suddenly ‘wake up’ and think, wow I don’t remember anything about the drive home.
It was all on autopilot.
I am awake mentally and physically only when my attention is aware of now.
Does this mean I am attention?

When I introspect and ask questions, there appears in my mind, answers.
A conversation. It is a bit like having an inner guru. This inner guru is very well read. I listen without drawing conclusions..
Here is a recent question and answer session:

“What is true?
I
Define I.
The awareness of being here, now. Present.
Are you always aware that you are present?
No. I know this because at times I realize I am not not present, but in this realization I become present.
Is the present always present?
I assume so. Yes.
But you are not always present?
Correct.
Then the present is real but you are not.
Ok.
Why are you not always present?
Because I have thoughts, feelings, and actions that obscure my awareness of being present.
Are the thoughts, feelings, and actions permanent?
No, they come and go.
If those thoughts, feelings, and actions were to disappear, would you always be aware of the present.
Yes.
Then the thoughts, feelings, and actions are not real, but what remains when they are gone is real.
So only the present and the awareness of the present is real?
Yes.
Are they the same?
Yes.
The thoughts, feelings, and actions are what you might call the self. But as they are not permanent or real, the self is not real. In fact, there is nothing in a human that can be called a self in the way it is usually understood. Unless you want to call a loose collection of ever changing thoughts, feelings, and actions, a self.
How do I divest myself of these thoughts, feelings, and actions? Loosen their grip?
Through being continually aware of them, through being continually present. Knowing deeply that they are not real, not you.
Later, we will have to get rid of this notion of “not you” because as you will ultimately discover; there is no you.
Huh...”

It appears I know more than I KNOW.
But how do I get to experience what I know? Still waiting for that penny to drop..

P.s. Watched Vanilla Sky starring Tom Cruise, Cameron Diaz, and Penelope Cruz last night.. interesting movie..

I’m late, I’m late, for a very important date...

“We all know more than we think we know... but how do you know when there is no you?”

this question leads to a fork in the trail:

If ‘I’ am an illusory, dream self, then it follows that ‘I’ have an illusory dream mind, containing illusory dream knowledge. None of which actually exists. (This appears to be a dead end.)

Or

Does this dream mind contain real knowledge placed there by whatever it is that’s real?

Further down the left fork...

What does it mean to “know there is no you”?
If I don’t exist, how do I know I don’t exist?
How do I know anything if I don’t exist?
Therefore something exists beyond the pronoun, that informs the pronoun?

p.s. Are the night dreams glimpses into alternate lives?

Reality is the source of the illusion?

To whom does this appear?
Itself?

My experience as well... dreams are truly fascinating.

Much love, Jed.