INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

I was always taught to ALLOW ALLOW ALLOW!  That it was what it was, that I was what I was... and that to allow was the best method to get to know this stuff that made up me. 

This led to folks thinking I was mad or crazed, it led to me thinking the same once or twice.  It led to trauma release and triggering of deep wounding from childhood and beyond.  It led to this journey of subtraction that I lived.

Jed was honest, kind and brutally loving when he needed to be.  His lessons pulled me through, the pointing led the way... and now I am suffering less, only when I believe that's what it is... other than that, stuff happens within and around me and I watch light playing with itself.

But as Jed would then say... nice story... now... further.

I am happy I can parent myself with his wisdom and am privileged to have 'known' his persona. 

I am in love with this wonderful portrait and shall frame it in honour of my one and only teacher.  Please thank whoever permitted the sharing.  I remember thinking Jed was young, such as his energy and lifestyle was.  When I discovered his age I could only smile.  What a guy!  He lived... what a wonderful way to end my mini memorial to this wonderful human being... he lived.  And now I intend on doing the same.

I am grateful, and in honour of his passing I wish to say the last two most important words he said, everytime we talked... Love ya   I will miss you Jed... but hey, you never really left us... right?  All the best for this journey you're now living, I hope that youor spirit is having some fun watching us from a new angle.

Life has no meaning.

My last question to him was:
If I die today, tomorrow there will be no funeral, my daughters will not cry, and no one will notice my death, because there were never a man in Colombia looking for be enlightened, he never had two daugters, he never married, he never exist.
And his answer was: YES, YES, YES.

Also I learned from him to see life from above, see everything from the highest point of view possible, if i could see things from above I could see  problems as they are: so tiny, so insignificant, so relative.

Jed McKenna never existed, I invented him in my mind to understand that I am everything, I am existence itself,  there is no one else in the universe, only I floating alone in an empty space....

The most important lesson, i would say Jed has helped me to realize how full of **** i am. And i am forever grateful for that. Grateful to be apart of this imaginary journey of bullshit realization.


"I look at people's lives and it never becomes less confounding to see the ways in which they squander the only true wealth they posses, despite not knowing when it will run out, only that it will. Throwing minutes and hours and days away like hot coals. What else does it mean to be asleep than to dispose of our own lives so thoughtlessly? What could be a more definitive symptom of non-lucidity? Every minute we spend oblivious to the value of a minute is a minute of unconsciousness. This isn't some screwball scheme to latch onto the present moment in time, it's simply what it means to be awake." - Jed McKenna (Spiritual Warfare)

1. Everything you do is to avoid the nothingness that you are
2. There is no "my" to awareness
3. How do you know? How do you really know?

"Everything is a lie."
"Breathe, relax, and enjoy the ride."
Thank you, Jed.
Salute to you, Sir.
Love ya, Smiling

some of the most potent pointers jed provided me were:
* breath work
* staying with the questioning, rather than settling for any answer (further)
* the reward of using self autolysis to dissolve every belief i've ever held is/was, afterward, feeling free to believe whatever i wanted moving forward because it's clear and evident i'm making it all up
* untruth unrealization is an inside job. others can point, but only i can do the work of opening 'my' notebook/eyes/wound/heart/mind/grave/whatever
* remembering it's ALL entertainment ('finite and infinite games' by carse provided a catalytic paradigm shift)
* stay curious, laugh often, love deeply, and don't take any of it seriously

thank you, jed. thank you, all.

love ya, aj