Childhood: Reacting (agreeing or disagreeing) with the will of others (supposed or imagined) i.e. parents, teachers, friends, politicians, ecclesiastical leaders, gods and so forth. This reacting is "victimhood", a blinding state in which the self is unknowingly self-victimized by it's own acceptance of programmed beliefs. Like trying to see the sun from the bottom of the ocean, the child (at whatever age) is in a constant sense of drowning, hence the "quiet desperation" most live with. A debilitating and difficult to see ego structure.
Adulthood: The rejection of other's opinions as gospel truth, the beginning of Self-Reliance, the shedding of self-limiting beliefs and the inception of the ability to navigate and create what one desires within supposed Reality. Attendant is also the beguiling sense of "I've got this figured out!" creating self righteousness, a new ego structure that itself becomes an impediment to "further".
Truth Realization: The total awareness that the "Self" is a fiction. One's imagined grip on reality is seen for the illusion it always was, as is one's sense of any objective or subjective reality.
The complete Understanding that no-thing can nor ever could fill the existential void at one's core, which then eliminates the sense of void altogether.
The internal (and possibly external) cascade failure of all supposed structures that seem to hold or prop up the "self" within; time, space, humanity, gender, family and any other belief/faith based story of one's relationship to some-thing or some-one,
including self (duality) which leaves; No self.
The final and abiding elimination of a sense of separateness from
All That Is which facilitates the total acceptance of
what is i.e.. equanimity, cessation of the desire/pleasure cycle. Purely experiential, non-expressible. (And yet
there appears to be trying ...)
Story: All of the above.
Paradox: Story apparently continues while the Understanding maintains that story is a fiction, one foot in, one foot out. "In the world but not of the world".
Perfection What is.
Unhappiness: A supposed self seemingly trapped in an illusion of disagreement with
What Is.
Happiness: State of equanimity produced from total alignment with
What Is.
Entertainment The feeling brought about while attempting to explain the unexplainable.