Hello Jed!
Here I am...I am the one who is avoiding to spill guts here. Today is the day when I visited this site after a several months of pause and, what a coincidence (!), I found out this rant.
It looks like it was wrote for me... So, lets start.
Why am I avoiding to join this forum actively?
Because very often (not just in regard this forum) I have a feeling that it isn't matter... what I think and feel isn't matter. It's just another ego story. Even when I expressed myself or made a question, at that very moment I am realizing that it was foolish, stupid and I "sense" the need of my ego for attention. Therefore, I am quite...
Am I afraid of being foolish?
Yes. But I'm not very much concerned about being foolish in front of people (less and less with years) , I am more concerned being foolish in front of authorities that are matters for me (for example, being foolish in front of you or other "guru"
).
Another "reason" I'm hiding behind is - time! I have no time to spend reading all posts and frankly speaking, many of them are just empty "ego seeking attention" stories. Yes, I know that I don't need to read them all, but I have an issue that maybe you can write something in between that could be my missing puzzle. And I don't want to miss something that is so important and valuable for my "liberation".
By the way, I'm happy that you put your rants under separated list.
And there is another issue: I think that my "garbage" is mine. Why should I share it with others? Ok, why not? Because my ego is hiding it's garbage (whatever that garbage is). Even he is afraid to look and afraid of that what he could find there...