INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

But before you can really decide, you have to learn how to...  for me it meant cutting to the core of my addictive behavior. it's just not that simple man. There has to be some sort of return of investment that kicks you in the face.. but its interesting stuff. When you find a good reason to say goodbye to your addiction, its simple. But friggin violent. I went through some insane process.. 4 weeks ago i smoked my last joint and cigarette. 1st januari said goodbye to my homy alcohol. 24th november i kissed my brother **** goodbye. The past 4 weeks, 2hr sleep a night, crazy dreams, ignited ears, eyes and head skinn. Thinking, digging and writing at night, going to the office like a zombie at day. Taking care of my children with an almkst fried brain. Half psychotic sick ****. But i did not want to smoke, drink, or use any substance at all. Still going strong. It isn't about the substances anyway. Feelin pretty happy and proud at the moment! And yeh.. if it looks, walks, talks en smell like free will.. it probably is. 😂

Edit: nah.. it isnt.. its just the only possibility left. So.. was it free will or was it just the way things went. Ah.. who cares. I stepped out of that friggin circle and thats beatiful.