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Jed McKenna

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Re: Jed Rant: Free Will, Part 1
« Reply #45 on: November 30, 2017, 03:44:26 am »
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Re: Jed Rant: Free Will, Part 1
« Reply #46 on: February 06, 2018, 04:46:38 am »
You dont truly want to or truly dont know how to? If you where raised by wolves, how is het possible to behave human? Have human values, borders.. if there is no foundation at all? If there was no example? Then... if you grow a few addictions, getting rid of them is called learning on the job. And then sometimes you crash and learn about that.  Get your ass up again and practice what was learned. Story of my life. The way certain patterns are triggerd is , sometimes, quite complicated and it shoots you in the head like a sniper.


How to quit - do not do it.

Everything else is your reason for why you don't want to. Like I said pure intent. Simple,  not easy.

You were right ;D :o :o

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Re: Jed Rant: Free Will, Part 1
« Reply #47 on: February 06, 2018, 10:50:49 am »
More accurately, you are always right, whatever you firmly decide.

I am currently investigating my own threshold for overwhelm. That tipping point to where I forget that free will is all there is leaving no external reality to dictate anything, only ever concessions to made to which I am not a fan knowing who I am and all that jazz.

Happy for you. It gets fun from here.

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Re: Jed Rant: Free Will, Part 1
« Reply #48 on: February 06, 2018, 12:38:05 pm »
But before you can really decide, you have to learn how to...  for me it meant cutting to the core of my addictive behavior. it's just not that simple man. There has to be some sort of return of investment that kicks you in the face.. but its interesting stuff. When you find a good reason to say goodbye to your addiction, its simple. But friggin violent. I went through some insane process.. 4 weeks ago i smoked my last joint and cigarette. 1st januari said goodbye to my homy alcohol. 24th november i kissed my brother **** goodbye. The past 4 weeks, 2hr sleep a night, crazy dreams, ignited ears, eyes and head skinn. Thinking, digging and writing at night, going to the office like a zombie at day. Taking care of my children with an almkst fried brain. Half psychotic sick ****. But i did not want to smoke, drink, or use any substance at all. Still going strong. It isn't about the substances anyway. Feelin pretty happy and proud at the moment! And yeh.. if it looks, walks, talks en smell like free will.. it probably is. 😂

Edit: nah.. it isnt.. its just the only possibility left. So.. was it free will or was it just the way things went. Ah.. who cares. I stepped out of that friggin circle and thats beatiful.
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Re: Jed Rant: Free Will, Part 1
« Reply #49 on: February 06, 2018, 12:43:47 pm »
And yeah. This is the part where the captain is behind the wheel again. Time to start using this piece of equipment as it is supposed to.

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Re: Jed Rant: Free Will, Part 1
« Reply #50 on: March 04, 2018, 10:06:22 am »
Well done Mr Important. I am happy for you! How it is going for you? 3 months already counting!

I am a former junkie too so I get how you feel;

A world without addiction, is just... a whole new Universe! And a great start for everything else because you did one of the hardest things, you won your own WILL

Good luck to you and bravely ahead :)

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Re: Jed Rant: Free Will, Part 1
« Reply #51 on: March 04, 2018, 10:54:42 am »
Ditto.... on the congrats.... ;) ;) ;)