Dear Members and Lurkers:
I have already written on this subject, but here I go again.
I constantly give to beggars here. Not huge amounts as I think spreading it around is better than a large sum to any one person. They are unbelievably grateful and gracious. Giving me blessings and thank yous that would melt an iceberg.
A strange thing sometimes happens. When I find someone who is particularly gracious and beautiful (young, old, male, female have nothing to do with the beauty I speak of, it's all in the eyes and their expressions of gratitude), I give some money and when I turn to walk away I feel this strange compulsion to turn around and give some more.
Sometimes I have turned back twice or even three times. Compelled by their eyes and graciousness I reach into my right pocket when I keep the local currency, grab my wad for the day and hand it all to them. Sometimes a little voice in my head says ''Crap... I give up'' as I am overcome by their gratitude. There is no money, no beggar and not me...but I still needs something to play with.
I didn't really learn this lesson, I was taught it by a legless beggar in Indonesia, tens of years ago. His motive capabilities where limited to pushing himself around on an 2 feet by 2 feet piece of plywood on four casters. Something like what you might move your fridge with. His smile is still fresh in my mind after forty years. And the strangest thing was most of his teeth where gold. I wonder where he got the money for them...
He radiated and it was not just the sun reflecting off his teeth, but that probably contributed.
There is a lesson here for you too ... what is it? Not about T/R, but about a better dream while you still appear in the dream of humanness. When you reach T/R (and you will one way or the other) I won't matter if you give or not, but you will probably give a great deal.
Love ya, Jed.