Ahhhh...Love is actually the Room Without Requirement. (Harhar)
Thank you, Jed. I see once again how you are a Doctor...sometimes mediating among the illusions, sometimes
Kavorkianesque.
I have watched my patience growing, all by itself (what else is there to do, after all?), but for now I do not have as much of it as a Doctor would need (though I do seem to have plenty of the ruthlessness a surgeon needs...grin). Sometimes it seems the best I can pull off is not to trip more wires while trying to extricate from the projections already fired onto me. Never realized till now that Grace actually means: Too slippery for the projections to stick while continuing to engage with them....
The desire to cut-and-run is decaying as the realization deepens that there's nowhere to run to, anyway.... interesting to me that it looks/sounds to others like emotional avoidance or lack of emotional depth...and it's bewildering as heck when a day or an hour later or before the same person/S projects onto me all measure of emotional depth, spiritual/emotional/intellectual profundity, etc.. That all brings up a "blech" and "eeek!" response in me, still sometimes.
But engaging-with in the sense you illustrate is something I can do, and I see it likely will get easier fast. The "blech" and "eek" factor I don't mind leaving to its own fate. Thanks for the illustrations...when you share them, they are helpful.
Ever thought of another forum, or section of this forum, for just that? For Post-apocalyptic post-human-engagement engagement coaching/illustrations...? ...Ahhh, never mind. It would be pulled over to content like this forum is for, pretty quickly, I see that. And It's all good.
--Misha