I'm gonna try condense the above attempt at using words to describe.
It doesn't get anymore self important than a I AM.
That I AM is a super-duper graduated ego; and it likes to go by the word Self too.
Why?
What is One getting out of a different level of observing duality? especially when there is nothing to watch and only ONE is watching?
I guess it's really just time to stop watching any of the duality games that usually offer a ton of reasons as to why they should be watched and/or split off in experienced.
This is only fun if you have enough split off perspective to view it as such. And having a like for bds&m is a criteria as well since that's the foundation of the game here in this focus point.
To view it as non-emotional detached you have to split off to disassociate which is still more duality; but now the word 'enlightened and Self' get to be attached to this perspective point of I AM.
When i went into the Self i discovered the Self likes the games and beliefs as much as the ego, but it's a different level of them both to maintain the illusion of the duality game.
Thanks for the soundingboard.
I guess the choice is clear now.