LOL....now I understand why I see people keep talking....after you ask a question...
I also wanted to say that it felt like the person who was sobbing(the 10year old me if I call it that) felt like in being watched the tears somehow felt fake) that the whole experience of crying was fake. basically I couldn't really feel sorry for myself, but again I can't say for sure if it was separate or mee, it feels like I should say it was separate but it was a long, long time ago...all I can say is that experience changed me but not is some huge way or anything