There was no question of choice to me...
The entire thing was very intense... Infinite nothing, blackness, happiness, fire, fun, scaryness and "silence" filled everything.... I Just waited until the experience ended
For me It was not like I chose to go back... Theres just no other place to go. Of course, I can kill myself at any moment... Where I am going to If I do this? Heaven? Hell? I have no Idea... I find the place Im now entertaining so theres no reason to commit suicide