5, 10, 20, all the same. only ever here now.
i tried running it forward too. looking forward 5, 10, 20 years, looking for the i am in the future. still only ever here now, but i noticed something, the future seemed less cluttered, as if the past held debris, and the future held less. who knows what the future holds?
the little bastard says, 'i do. it holds nothin', just like it never happened.'
see, i's all over, yet only ever here now.
it's not a small sense. the i am is becoming the most obvious thing in the world. it's veryhereallthenotime. at least, that's how i would describe it in this moment.