Dear CJ:
Tell me how much thinking was required to build the human body, to create a being that could walk, thinks, feel, love, even reproduce itself. A thing comprised of countless cells, genes, chemical reactions and the capacity to imagine anything, even to create a collider.
You have it very wrong if you think your thinking is important or that you can ever understand anything 'out there'. Turn it around, find out what you fear, what you are hiding from with that intellect. If you such a smart guy start focusing on something worthwhile.
Thinking just happens, perceiving just happens, sensing just happens and you just happened.
Well, that's just my opinion and I could be full of sub-atomic b. s.
Love ya, Jed.