Hi Dear:
Thanks for sharing that. I do judge and I judge quite a bit because I want to stay around in the dream to actually see what I have felt was always around the corner.... i.e., the end of this world. Working with a couple of students here, and I have re-labelled T/R as ''freedom'' because they have a good deal of garbage associated with T/R and enlightenment. Many years ago, I gave up judging my judgments because that was just a silly waste of energy. However, there are specific categories of judgment, some of which are practical and survival oriented and others which could be described as petty or bitchy. Whatever arises in this body and mind, has nothing to do with ME anyways for I pay it very little mind.
Remember, you are never a profit in your home town. You can't tell loved ones how to get better, how to improve, etc. For one thing, you don't know what is best for them... and whatever they appear to be doing is actually what they need to be doing, like it or not. Caring for others is all well and good, but thinking they have to be something different is not love, it's a well disguised form of hatred.
Sometimes it's difficult to recognize parts of others that you hate... but in this dream you will never get love without hate as well.... just the way the polarities work. I spent probably a decade trying to sort it all out, to be non-judgmental, to love everyone and self, to be all those wonderful new age qualities, and then... I just gave up on it, let it all go, realized that those ideals are just more stories and mostly total bull
****. I accepted life and humanness, BUT, in that acceptance, I also let go of all seriousness. This is just a three dimension, imaginary entertainment park and is often a total
****-show, but that's all part of the entertainment.
I don't want for XXXX to be drunk and unhappy, but... I don't really care. It might sound strange, but most appearances of caring are for public show and deception. If he, or any one of my friends dies, I know at a gut level that it's also just part of the human story and dream stuff If a friend falls, I'll pick him up, but I don't fret about the falling or make big show of the picking him up. It's all ridiculously simple and easy when you just do it, but impossible for most folks because they have to realize that THEY are totally unimportant and inconsequential. Taking that one step further, you spent a lifetime living out and though lies. Everyone does, we are the people of the lie. Open your mouth and out flows more stories, deception driven by insecurities, all very human, totally understandable and totally forgivable. EVERYONE in the same boat in this dream.
When you get that all of this is a dream, (all means all) then you will indeed be free. You will be free to be a murderer or a saint, and because it's a dream, neither are better or worse. Given true freedom, most folks will lean towards the saint. Given captivity and a sense of no freedom, it tend in the other direction as is pretty observable in society.
SO, what you need to do is learn how to die well. It's very important and not important at all because it too is just a facet of the dream.
Let go of everything, but by that, I mean, let go of your attachments to everything. You can love it all and not be attached to any of it. IMHO that is the only true love, the only true freedom. And forget about pursuing something like T/R and enlightenment. Your are too attached to those as idealizations. Finding real freedom is your new re-label. Assuming you are listen to any of my drivel.
Make up stories that are en-lightening, stories without any stickyness. Forgive EVERYONE AND YOURSELF for everything that you could imagine and for anything else that you can't imagine.
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Also, am working on another tech with these two, focusing only on freedom. Maybe run a little of it by you on SKYPE if you are so inclined. Both of these student visitors are types of XXXXXX and it is fun working with them. They contribute massively to my dream, and I hallucinate that I do the same for them.
If I can find time, after our analysis I will send picks and some details. We can also Skype on Sunday if you like.
Talk soon,
Love ya, Jed