INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

So what sense does it make? There's only Entertainment that makes sense. The person who "I" thought I am is for entertainment with all that's happening. Who's the one to be entertained? No-one! The real Me behind every-thing, that can't be found.

Haha. A sucker game ,  haha.  It sure as hell is , I don’t do much  but I have fun just being me , smoke cigs sometimes, why not ? Do what I want ,,,  but I’m just talking about the dynamics in life are so **** up .
Even so called enlightened people  want to play the no it all ,,, there’s this dynamic that you have to play ,,

Anyway ,,,,  what I think you’re saying is.   Your experience is different than mine. And why and what is mine like .
Personally I don’t like people that much find it difficult to find the reason to get anything from them .

Just my thoughts.  Thanks there Jed 

Thanks for sharing, Kelly and Jed.
Well appreciated conversation. 

Hi there:

Good questions. At your age and circumstances I would suggest you do pull but and watch very closely... what the lies, b.s., stories, hurts and guilt BUT with a very focused determination to do absolutely nothing at all... be the disinterested witness, at least for a while.

Love Jed.

(This is not a poem)

When It's a cat, It plays as a cat and It chases the thread
When It's a human, It pretends to be a human very well, and from the thread It makes clothes, and It sells them for paper
There are no events, no nouns in the universe, It invented words to trick Itself, in order to misunderstand with Itself
Of Beauty It doesn't take pride, of ugliness It does not think bad
Poetry is the closest to It, only million dark years away
Yes, you! You can't exist if you are not It - so stop pretending
Is there enlightenment here?

Dear, Jed.
 I'm from Russia, so I apologize in advance for some mistakes in my letter. I'm 19 years old. At the beginning of this year, I came across your first book and read it for a couple of days. Soon I read all the others, except for "A nice game of chess", because I did not find it in Russian translation. For some time after reading, I was overcome by a gloomy and depressive state, which, incidentally, coincided with my exception from the first year of medical institute for failure. At about the same time, my parents broke up. After about a month in unison, I began to look for work. For some time I worked in cell phones store. One morning, going to work, I felt a burning, terrible and incredibly strong desire to give up everything and surrender to the will of the universe. So then I understood surrender. I felt I need to give up and become a homeless. But then I overcame that desire. I do not know how correct that decision was, but I returned to my life. Now I have re-entered to another medical institute, where is a slightly easier program of training. However, periodically I have it happens cognitive dissonans. I think a lot about the escape, about complete and irreversible surrender. So here is my question. Can I choose a less radical way of realizing the truth? For example, to practice spiritual autolysis, memento mori and testimonial in my spare time? How true is my understanding of surrender? Recently I have been trying to just not identify myself with my personality and not resist emotions. I let them through myself. It gives a tangible effect. Especially during stressful situations. I feel freer. I understand that it's stupid to ask you what I have to do in this situation, but I would like to know your view of my situation. Is it worth taking any actions or just keeping calm and letting things to be? Thank you in advance for the answer.

Thank you very much, Jed. Your answer really really helped me.