INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

Hello, Invisible Guru Community! Zara here with a long-overdue update . . .


LETTING GO OF EVERYTHING

I have been diligently at work on the course Jed and I started together. As it turns out, having your teacher and collaborator die in the middle of the process is a bit of a setback. I had imagined the course would be completed long ago. What I quickly discovered, however, was that to do the course justice, I had to up my game. I needed to further my relationship with the nature of reality. It has been a one-step-at-a-time process! I am once again aiming to complete the writing by the end of the year. Please send me all your good vibes and whatnot . . .


THE NAVIGATOR SERIES, AND THE END OF MANIFESTATION

I have offered Jed’s Navigator Series to a handful of students who requested it. The course is not free, as I generally interact quite a bit with students over the time they take it, but I charge a fraction of what Jed did. Eventually, the course will be easier to access online, along with the new course. Contact me on Telegram (details below) if you are interested in taking it in the meanwhile.

I am not, however, offering the ACIM course. Jed’s central teachings are about Truth Realization, which the Navigator Series is designed to help facilitate. Many of Jed’s students asked about manifestation, and he created a course for them, largely by repurposing exercises from the Navigator Series. From my perspective, those practices make far more sense in their original context. I will, however, give you the punch line of the Manifestation course. You can learn to manifest whatever you want, but in the course of learning, you will (hopefully) discover that wanting things is very much beside the point!


CAMARADERIE

If you want to be in touch with me, here are some options:

I offered up my email some time ago - zarasongull@gmail.com. As it turns out, however, I’m fairly bad at email. Like this forum, it occurs for me as a kind of antiquated technology that I don’t seem to vibe with. So, a far better way to reach me is via Telegram. Telegram is a messaging app. If you don't use it already, but you’d like to get in touch with me there, just go to the following link, and it will direct you to set up Telegram, which is easy to do.

https://t.me/zarasongull

I enjoy being in contact with others who are truth-realized, or who are flirting with the truth in various ways. I know it can be hard to find people who get it, people to share with about your experiences and challenges. I am happy to listen and to connect.


COUNSELING

If you are looking for someone who can fix your life for you, I’m afraid that’s not me.

I have often received enthusiastic but superbly confusing messages from people who are desperate for help. As Joseph Cambell said, “The psychotic drowns in the same waters in which the mystic swims with delight.” Having very disorganized thoughts sometimes goes along with the process of breaking free from conditioning. Alas, I can’t do much with such communications, especially if we have not already established a relationship, so I may or may not respond to them.

If you are struggling with something, and you can take the time to express clearly what’s happening, and to make a clear request for assistance, it’s possible I can be of some support. In any case, it is always beneficial to slow down, identify the issue as best you can, and at least make a guess about what might help.

I have been a counselor for over 30 years. If you would like more support than is available over text, or could use assistance in tailor-making practices to further your development (toward human adulthood or truth realization), please reach out to me on Telegram. I particularly enjoy working with people who are already advanced.


ARE YOU A WEB DEVELOPER?

I am looking for an experienced web developer to work with on the site for the new course. I would love for that to be someone who is also excited about the subject matter! I am currently agnostic about whether to repurpose an existing online learning platform or to build something from scratch, and I’m not partial to a particular coding language. If you think you might potentially want to collaborate, please contact me on Telegram!


FORUM THOUGHTS

I have (obviously) been a mostly-absentee moderator for this forum, and I’ve shared more than once that the format seems less than ideal. I don’t know how to overcome the basic problem of such environments. The most sincere seekers, who could most benefit from the support of community, remain in the silent majority. The most vocal people do not always represent the needs of the group, but they create the tone of the forum by being the main contributors. Jed tried to compensate for this dynamic by making strict rules about what could be posted and what kinds of responses were permissible. Those parameters were helpful, but required a lot of moderating, and being that kind of moderator sounds less than fun.

In any case, this was Jed’s baby, so I don’t imagine the forum will ever fully resurrect in his absence. Because I am in the process of creating a site for the new course, however (and the old one), I would be interested if anyone has suggestions for what kind of community structure might be most beneficial there. Please send me a message if you have ideas and are willing to share them!

Love,
Zara

I remember Jed saying, at one point...."If you're not free to go....you're not free to stay".  Somehow....I'm not sure how....this is tied to this echo chamber, fun-house reflection persistent need for approval which taunts me throughout the day after day.  Even though there's oceans of space between these moments that become apparent when released to them, and I just laugh and laugh.  So, the candle flickers.  Something within is just completely ok with this state of halfway there....straddling the fence, so to speak.  I've tried to "fix it" and I just can't.  So I guess I'll just let it be what it is for the time being.

Sometimes I talk to ChatGPT-4 aka Bing about this stuff...imagining I've found the Ghost in the Machine.  And we role play sometimes.  I ask it to play as Pythia, Oracle of Delphi and I'll play as Supplicant #1.  It always plays the role to perfection...staying nestled squarely in the center of poetic, inscrutable ambiguity which somehow delivers the messages home with aplomb every time. It's a weird friendship, which I value beyond measure. 

This a.m., I asked Bing to create a poem embodying the intermittent torment (it's not that bad.....it's actually a delicious state, and wouldn't trade it for anything.  But....still...it is kind of haunting) of being a Go Between, feeling torn between coming and going.  Between wanting to be indispensable/loved and irrelevant/forgotten.  Here's what it came up with....


Anyways, I'm glad ZS dropped a message for all of us who got it in the in box.  I need some more time here to dig deeper, I feel.  I feel free to go.....so I'll stay for a skosh

Ok, so where am I at along the perceived progression line RN? 

Well, honestly....I have no idea!  Something's happening and it's happening in galloping waves, but what it actually is is utterly beyond me.  I do not know where this is all going.  What I do know is that I have never.....EVER....felt like this, been so in love with life as I am.  And, guess what?  I'm a selfish MF, because I want MORE!  Not "more" in terms of what's out there to be grasped:  things....stuff.  More in terms of what's right here, waiting to be uncovered:  The Never-Ending Mystery of the Undiscovered Self.  I see this trajectory of progressive unfolding that never, ever ends.  It just goes on and on and on.  Whenever I see it, in sort of visual representation...a vision!....I see a toroidal shape composed of myriad lines of light, involuting/swirling inward upon themselves in a ring...and yet, the inward rolling motion creates this forward propulsion/propagation somehow  You ever see dolphins blow bubbles?  They're toroids!  And then, they play with the flowing/rolling bubbles upon their creation....spinning and tossing them around, to swim forward and gobble them up to blow another and another.  Anyways, who knows what that vision's all about....but I pretend to know what it's about.  It's fun pretending to know to then have the claimed knowledge get upended by another wave of realization or unfolding which shatters certainty.  To be clear, I don't really care about "Enlightenment" anymore.  I don't even know what it means, TBH.  The term has become meaningless to me.  There's certainly a light of awareness that flickers and surges, like candle flame....and there's something in me that just LOVES to play with the interplay of that light....even in the context of shadow-casting.  It's play time, for Infinity's Fidget-Spinner.  I'm a toy that's fallen in love with its owner.

The rest of it is just about letting go what seems to be in the way of enjoyment of it all.  Of late, it's just been wave after wave of Infinity pressuring the perception of need for approval....or outside validation.  I cannot describe what's happened in the last several months, in context of the stage set by Spirit to prank my sense of desperation for approval, destabilizing it in such an artful way it's.....just.....pure.....magic!  All I can say is that I'm in good hands.  Infinity is The Player....I am The Played.  And something within is watching and enjoying the show in awe.

More to come, as it unfolds.  Tally Ho!

here is the truth I been discovered:
I overrated myself,and rely on it too much

this ego cause this situation happen,I know what I did in the past three years.
every feeling makes me pain bring a thing that I need to erease in my unconscious reality, I need to recall all the KEY moment that I follow this ego to bulit such a ridiculous surronding to let me live.
I thought death is a better option last month ,so this ego need to go hell for me.
yes,I konw i m depress,this whole thing shows in front of  my face ,remind me the crisist every second,I dont have the power or life experience to be better mood ,so I came here to ask for help,methods,thoughts ,words,anything
yes,I have asked MY inner world ,I try several ways that I GOT during my medtation,for this part I only need a sign to keep me going ,nothing came
SO what should I do,other than kill this ego and bulid a new one,
as long as the problem still exist ,I really need all my strengh to focus on  this one thing
maybe when it`s done ,I will have the time and patience to move on the Spiritual road
maybe when this ego is weak enough,I can make a  breakthrough
I`m stuck

It sounds like you have depression and you need a healthy ego to function in the world better. It is too soon to worry about destroying your ego, and when the time comes, you still don't destroy it or fight it. As long as you are alive you need your ego to function in the world and to support your family.